Where do Vanished objects go?

2012-02-16T11:06:00.009+08:00

Like OMG @.@ but WTF is with his hair? @.@ I'm not saying the concept photo is bad, it's just that I'm not drawn to it. Besides the fact that it's Seungri, nothing else is making me like the photo. Not even his abs. I'd rather have him clothed like TOP. Can I like kill his hairstylist please? -.-

Oh and I feel so sorry for his ear. I like piercings and all but having ~~three~~ four fresh holes in your ear hurts. I know, mine was two and they're not at the hard part. ~~I feel like my English is baliko.~~

I guess he has four new piercing holes? But if the one at the bottom has closed long ago since he hasn't been wearing earrings for years, then that's a total of five holes. YG y u torturing my baby? TT TT

And this fan is crazy like WHAT THE FUCK? STAY AWAY FROM MY BABY.

EVERY YG/BIBGBANG FAN THAT I SEE ON TUMBLR IS LUSTING ON SEUNGRI. GTFO BITCHES. ~~Possessive :))))~~

2012-02-16T00:09:00.004+08:00

So ~~kanina~~ kahapon ~~kahapon na pala un di ko narealize madaling araw na pala ko nagblog~~ Mechanics subject nag-seatwork kami. Sa first number, ung una kong figure, may kulang ako nalagay so pinoint out ni Sir Bong. Edi okay tama na pati equation ko...pero mali sagot ko. Kasi mali ung pagkuha ko ng isang lenght tapos tinuruan pa ko ni sir e by proportion lang un. Wala lang, nakakatanga. Proportion na nga lang mali pa ko. Naintindihan ko naman nung nagdi-discuss. So naubos ung oras ko sa isang number at di ko na nagawa ung isa pa.

P.S. Nag-karaoke nga pala kami kanina nila Kevin at Jamie. Kinanta ko ung Fire ng 2NE1. Ang saya lang kantahin sa karaoke. Kaya lang ako lang nakaka-appreciate.

2012-02-14T14:12:00.002+08:00

Si Lance nagmumura "ina mo" daw. Pinitik ko bibig. Ako pa pinagalitan ni daddy. Thank you.

2012-02-12T23:55:00.002+08:00

Nanonood ako ng What's Up ngayon. Wala lang, teenage shit. May nakita rin akong Tumblr post nung isang araw, "I'm childish, that is my charm. I'm fearless, that is my youth." Si CL daw nagsabi niyan. Wala lang, teenage shit. Pero yan nga ata ung motto ng buhay ko ngayon lalo na ung "I'm fearless, that is my youth." So ngayon, habang nanonood ng What's Up, inisip ko kung ano bang meron sa buhay ko ngayon. Kung may problema ba ko, nage-enjoy ba ko, ano bang meron. Nage-enjoy ako, yeah. May problema rin ako. Ano kaya iniisip ng tatay ko every time madaling araw ako umuuwi, may pake pa kaya siya? Ano kaya iniisip nila sa grades ko? Malamang iniisip nila nagbubulakbol ako. Tapos ung ate ko kawawa naman trabaho ng trabaho para mabayaran ung tuition ko pero nagda-drop lang ako ng subjects at bumabagsak. Tapos ngayon on final probation pa ko, baka matanggal ako sa course ko. Kasalanan ko lahat un alam ko. Pero pano nga pag natanggal ako sa Computer Engineering? Pag-aaralin pa kaya nila ako? Pag nag-iba ba ko ng course, hahayaan nila ko bulik ng Engineering? Ano magiging reaction ng ate ko? Ano mangyayari sa future ko at sa mga pangarap ko? Iniisip ko pa lang na matatanggal ako sa Engineering naiiyak na ko, di ko alam kung anong gagawin ko pag nangyari nga un. Ayoko rin lumipat ng school. Bukod sa Ateneo at UP, wala na kong ibang gustong lipatan na school. La Salle pwede pa kaya lang mahal ewan ko kung papayag sila, UST naman okay din sana pero wala naman ung course ko. Maaalis nga kaya ako sa Engineering? Hindi ba ko nag-aaral talaga? Ano na nangyari sa awards ko dati, san na napunta ung utak ko? Buti pa ung mga nag-aaral sa hindi masyadong kilalang school, maga-graduate na. Hindi naman dahil sa madali ung course nila o madali sa school nila, ginagawa kasi nila ung kailangan gawin kahit madali pa un. Dapat ba umalis na ko sa Engineering? Sabi nga ng mommy ko nung isang araw dapat daw hindi na ko nag-Engineering. Dapat daw pure na lang kinuha ko, Computer Science. Un naman choice ko dati e, ewan ko kung bakit naging Engineering. Di lang naman dahil sa pangalan kaya ko gusto. Syempre andun na ung malaki sweldo pero ewan ko gusto ko lang talaga.

SE7EN - When I Can't Sing Cover

2012-02-12T20:32:00.001+08:00

EDIT: So I decided to submit this cover to the SE7EN x allkpop Comeback Cover Event. I know it's not perfect but what's there to lose if I give it a try? Can you guys give me love and support? ♥

2012-02-12T05:24:00.003+08:00

So ngayon dapat natutulog na ko kasi galing ako kila Cindie at, you know, shot shot. Nung una ayaw ko pa pumunt kasi hinihintay ko si Joann, e ang tagal niya, so nauna na ko. Tapos ako lang at si Monique, ung friend ni Cindie from Fatima, ung andun. Tapos after a while, dumating na sila Tintin, Melai, Mary, at Brian, ibang friends ni Cindie. Tapos dumating na rin si Joann kasama si Jason, tropa niya sa Fatima. Kain kain, tapos pagkaalis nila Tintin, Melai, at Mary, nagshot na kaming natira. Ininom namin, El Hombre Tequila. So shot hanggang maubos ung dalawang bottles. Tapos dumating na ung boyfriend ni Cindie, si Nicko, at hinatid namin si Monique sa sakayan. Pag balik namin, eto si Brian, the moves na papasok ng bahay nila Cindie para matulog. Magtitimpla daw ng kape, ayun di na lumabas. Tapos ako, sakit na kasi ng chan ko dami ko nakain, ung dalawa sa last shots ko, nilipat ko dun sa isang empty bottle ng Antonov. Ha! First time ko nandaya sa inuman kasi masakit na chan ko. :)) So ayun inubos na nga ung last bottle ng tequila. Tapos nilabas ni Cindie ung Antonov, Tanduay Ice Red Mirage, at Blue Illusion. So inom blah. Tapos si Joann banggag na, bago pa kasi pumunta kila Cindie e nagshot na. Ayun nagsuka. Buti umabot sa toilet. :)) Tapos dapat sabay kami uuwi ni Joann e pero pinatulog na muna namin kasi hello lasing. At nauna na ko. Nga pala, after ko inumin ung Tanduay Ice, chaka nagsink in ung alcohol sakin at nafeel ko ung hilo. Hindi ko sinabi sa kanila, pero inaantok na talaga ko. Nung una inaantok lang ako e, kasi di naman talaga ko lasing ung mata ko lang ayaw makisama. So nung pauwi ako ung mata ko di okay. Tapos sobrang alert at guarded pa ko haha. Mind over matter nga talaga. Chaka kapag umiinom, nilalagay sa chan, hindi sa utak. See? I survived. Yay~

PS. Sa party ba ni Air sa 24 ako lang ung magpapakasaya as in magpapakasaya with drinks? If so, kailangan ata si RJ? :)) Kaya lang nakakahiya naman sa inyo gutys...parang ako lang ung game...pero di ko naman sinasabing uminom kayo. :)

2012-02-11T18:01:00.009+08:00

Met with Lara yesterday after class. We went to TriNoma and I bought two pairs of pants. One is leopard print and the other is zebra print.

Also bought these bottles of nail polish.

And this is my nail kit.

Thank You, Professor Ryan

2012-02-10T00:41:00.003+08:00

Ngayon ko napatunayan na hindi lahat ng tao sa bus na kumakausap sakin ay masama. Kanina ung katabi kong lalaki kinausap ako tapos may binigay na maliit na babasahin. Ung title, "SI Jehova, Sino Siya?". E ang alam ko lang, biblical name un. Tapos pinabasa na niya ko ng isang verse sa Bible tapos mga onting linya dun. Pinakilala niya sakin si Jehova.

Diba si God the Son ay si Jesus? E anong pangalan ni God the Father? Diba kahit si Jesus sinasabi niya na mas mataas si God the Father sa kanya? Pati si Jesus nagdadasal kay God the Father. Tapos may pinabasa ulit siyang isang verse sa Bible tapos dun nakalagay na si Jehova si God the Father. Sabi nga sa Our Father na prayer "Ama namin sumasalangit ka, sambahin ang ngalan Mo". E si Jesus din daw nagturo satin magdasal. So ibig sabihin, gusto ni Jesus na si God the Father i-worship natin. "Sambahin ang ngalan Mo" tapos hindi natin alam ung pangalan ni God the Father. Tapos tinanong ko kung bakit ang gamit nga ng Christian church ay God the Father instead of Jehova. Sabi niya, ung mga pari daw kasi dati iniisip nila na sobrang sacred ung name na Jehova kaya hindi nila ginagamit. Kung tama pagkaka-alala ko, inalis na nga daw sa Bible. Takot daw kasi sila na magamit sa mali o masama ung pangalan na Jehova. Tas naisip ko, oo nga, diba nga ung pangalan ni Jesus Christ e ginagawa nang expression ng iba which is not good. So ayun parang nasanay na nga daw kasi na hindi ginagamit ang Jehova.

Wala lang, natuwa lang ako. Buti na lang kinausap niya ko, may nalaman pa kong importanteng bagay. Lagi ko kasi iniisip na si Jesus ay kapatid ko tapos si God the Father tatay namin. Tapos kanina ko lang narealize na hindi ko pala alam pangalan ng tatay ko. Tapos ang alam ko Papa God, Kuya Jesus. Bat si Jesus may pangalan si God the Father wala. Ngayon alam ko na. Papa Jehova, Kuya Jesus. Ang nakakatuwa pa dun, nung unang beses niya ko kinausap akala ko magbebenta siya alam niyo un ung mga religious things na binibenta, pero hindi. Tapos hindi rin niya ko hinihikayat na magconvert sa religion nila. Kung hindi ko pa nga tinanong hindi ko pa malalaman kung ano tawag sa kanila e. At buti na lang tinanong ko kasi hindi ko alam na may ganun, Jehova's Witnesses. Wala lang. Sarap ng feeling na alam ko na pangalan ni God the Father tapos may mga mababait pa sa bus. After nung napakapangit kong experience nung isang araw, ganito ung kasunod. Thank you Lord.

2012-02-09T12:20:00.002+08:00

List of gadgets I'll buy when I get a job, in order:

1. DSLR

2. Laptop

3. Newest iPod Touch by then

4. Cellphone

Laptop and DSLR may change places depending on the health status of my current laptop by then.

2012-02-07T01:04:00.002+08:00

So kanina, magka-chat kami nila Lara at Jen. Nag-uusap kami tungkol sa lalaki at kung pano ba sila dapat manligaw/magconfess. During the conversation, naisip ko kung magagawa ko kaya talaga in real life ung mga sinasabi kong pagrespond sa mga sasabihin nung lalaki. Siguro naman magagawa ko, "think before you act" na ko pagdating sa ganyan. Promise. :))

Facebook Convo between Me and Jen

2012-02-04T19:27:00.001+08:00

Luisa Leal

Odie Jardin

Being RESPECTED by guys is more important than being BEAUTIFUL in their eyes.

Luisa Leal

may naalala ko grabe kahapon

Jennifer Michelle Santos

Luisa Leal

nagdinner muna kasi kami nila ezra at kev bago umuwi

tas mga 9 uwi na kami edi nagbus ako tas dun din sumakay si kev

dun kami sa tatluhan, edi dalawa lang kami.tas bumaba na siya tas may tumabi saking mama

malaking tao na ung muka di mapagkatiwalaan

tas edi dulo to dulo kami hanggang sa may umupo na taga ust blah blah ayan wala naman nangyari

tas nung bumaba na ung taga ust dun sa sandigan

umusog lang ng onti ung katabi ko para lang di kami siksik pero nakadikit sakin

sandigan ba un philcoa pala

ayun tas bigla akong kinausap

Jennifer Michelle Santos

oo tapos :S

f9028590238555sakdja

Luisa Leal

makati ba daw lalamunan ko

kasi inuubo ako

tas basta dami na niya sinabi makati ba daw lalamunan ko,di daw ako papatulugin nun,kain daw ako strepsils

e pero kasi DONT TALK TO STANGERS ESP WHEN THEY LOOK SUSPICIOUS

iniisip ko nga simula nung tumabi siya sakin na no need to feel alarmed di lahat ng tao masama

tapos bigla niya ko kinausap

tas nung mejo nasa sandigan na ata tinanong ako kung galing ba ko sa trabaho, nagshrug lang ako.tas edi galing daw sa school, nagnood lang ako

alam mo ung di ko talaga siya kinakausap ng matino kasi nga duhh

tas bababa na siya sa manggahan e narinig niya pala nung nagbayad ako edi tinanong niya kung sa litex ako bababa tas sabi ko hindi

tas di ko na pinansin hanggang sa bumaba siya

wala lang

Jennifer Michelle Santos

yun nga e grr

Luisa Leal

nakakatakot kasi ung itsura niya ><

Jennifer Michelle Santos

syempre ayaw mo naman sila isipan ng masama pero ewan ko asjkaklgjag

Luisa Leal

kasi naman wag magbigay ng motibo para pagisipan ng masama

di naman sa sinasabi kong maganda ako pero bigla ko naisip nun na ang hirap maging maganda parang ganun.tas naisip ko baka dahil lang babae ako.e pero kasi para sakin, di naman ako sexy, ano pa ba gugustuhin nila sakin, edi muka.

ung ganun

Jennifer Michelle Santos

gusto ko lukutin yung mga ganun haha

Luisa Leal

tas halata naman na siguro nun na awkward na nga at di ko na siya pinapansin tas di pa lumayo agad ><

Jennifer Michelle Santos

parang nafifeel nila na on guard ka kaya kakausapin ka talaga. bastos

Luisa Leal

iniisip ko na kung ano gagawin ko e ung isang kamay ko nakafist na para lang di ko siya pagsalitaan ng masama e

kapikon ><

Jennifer Michelle Santos

kung di yun bastos e ano yun haha

aynako

Luisa Leal

kaya nga e :& pangit niya

muka pa siyang goon -.-

naalala ko tuloy diba nagkita kami nila aiko

tas andun nanaman ung asungot na ginugulo ako

Jennifer Michelle Santos

wala bang time na pwede tayong hndi kabahan sa pag commute haha iniisip ko sobrang saya kung walang possibility na may masamang manyari

Luisa Leal

e tas di ko kasi siya pinapansin

tas di rin naman siya tumabi sakin nung nagkachance siya(buti na lang nakaramdam)

tas pag napapatingin ako sa kanya tas nakatingin siya sakin sama ng tingin niya

parang papatay katakot e

haha

Jennifer Michelle Santos

weh

problema niya haha

Luisa Leal

nung simula emo lang siya tas biglang nabadtrip ung itsura tas un nga nakita ko sama ng tingin sakin

tas edi nakakuha na siya ng ibang babae galing sa ibang table.tas nung pag balik niya sa table namin

ung isang friend niya na friend ni aiko sabi parang makikipagkilala ba un joke basta di ko maalala basta tinuturo ung si paul nga ung asungot haha

tas sabi ko di si cindie na lang ganyan blah

Luisa Leal

wala lang

parang.dude pwede ka bang tumigil? =.=

Jennifer Michelle Santos

dko gets yung cindie

Luisa Leal

kasi nung last time, ang sinasabi niya gusto niya ako at si cindie.pero parang more on sakin.

edi sabi ko nun si cindie na lang

e si cindie syempre di pwede kasi may bf

edi wala na siyang pagasa samin haha

kasi naman -.-

pano naman natin hindi gagawing mataas standards natin kung ganun naman ung mga lalaki sa paligid -.-

Jennifer Michelle Santos

haha absolute boyrfriend iwantsomuch

Luisa Leal

meron din nun si joann naman ung ginugulo

tas ung isa si bea

nakikisama na nga lang kami e -.-

bat ba ganun ung ibang kaibigan ni aiko >.>

Jennifer Michelle Santos

sino ba may kaibigan

ok lang kay aiko?

Luisa Leal

ung isang babae din kasi na kakilala naman namin close nga din nila joann, parang siya ung gumagawa ng pair.

ewan ko parang neutral si aiko e

syempre nakikisama kami, si aiko naghost e

ayaw naman namin guluhin ung party/lakad ni aiko

When I Can't Sing - SE7EN

2012-02-01T01:34:00.004+08:00

“Even if I cant sing anymore and have another occupation,Just for the reason that I am me, can you still continue to love me?”

Beautiful music. How can you stop singing when you have a God given gift like this? ♥

;__;

2012-01-31T22:19:00.003+08:00

Seungri, "As soon as our eyes met, the tears...."

“I want to date someone normal. I don’t want this difficult love...”

After parting ways with his first love, Seungri started focusing on practising for the musical ‘Shower’. The girl who had been cheering him on to achieve his dreams was no longer there but that didn’t mean he could give up on them. Then one day, she contacted him before one of his shows.

“She must’ve heard that I was performing. She said she was gonna come watch.”

“Are you gonna come with your boyfriend?” (Seungri)
“...I’m going with a friend.” (Girl)

Seungri wanted to give her the tickets himself but she asked him to send them by post. He wanted to see her face so badly. But he couldn’t refuse her request.

“I gave her the best seats. I checked beforehand where abouts they were from the stage too. But when the time finally came, I couldn’t see her because of the lighting.”

The show continued, and Seungri really put his all into it. He was frustrated at not being able to see her but just the thought that ‘She’s watching me’ made him try his best in every single scene.

“I was singing the last song when suddenly our eyes met. Tears were running down my face before I knew it. I bet people thought ‘Seungri’s good at acting’ at the time, hehehehe.” (Seungri did actually receive good reviews for his performance in ‘Shower’)

He thought, ‘When this song ends, it’ll really be the end of the two of us.’ Behind the stage, he decided to run out and grab her during the curtain call. But when he came back on, her seat was empty.

“I made a huge decision before stepping back on stage but she wasn’t there. But she texted me a while later.”

“You haven’t changed at all. Goodbye.” (Girl)

“Her text probably meant that I was doing everything I wanted so well even without her. I put all my effort into my acting, for her, and even tried to hold her back but that must’ve made her feel distance between us.”

‘I love you’ (Seungri)

Seungri’s cellphone number changed after that day, and his agonising first love finally came to an end.

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Sana ako na lang ung babae. Bat ayaw na niya kay Seungri nun. Ang gwapo ni Seungri lalo na nung nabasa ko yan. Alam niyo ung inner gwapo-ness. Future boyfriend/husband, sana ganyan ka.

2012-01-31T21:07:00.002+08:00

Dahil nainggit ako dun sa etymology ng name ni Kev sa Facebook niya, hinanap ko rin ung sa pangalan ko. Tamang tama, galing ng nanay at tatay ko.

Maria - It is of Latin origin, and the meaning of Maria is "star of the sea".
Luisa - Luisa is a female name of German origin (from Ludwig) which means "glorious warrior".
Inna - Inna is a Russian name supposedly meaning "strong water".
Leal - This is an ancient name from the Old Scottish-Gaelic pre 15th Century "leal", itself a form of the French "leial", a Norman introduction. The meaning is given as "loyal" or "faithful", but as the ultimate origin is the Latin "legalis", the name may be a metonymic for a lawyer.

Sa "Balito" wala akong makita. Puro "Ballito", which means "little ball". All along akala ko of Irish origin ang "leal", pero alam ko na ung meaning dati pa. Pero ung Leal daw, they moved to Ireland din. Basta galing sa United Kingdom. Ako na huma-Harry Potter.

2012-01-31T02:30:00.002+08:00

Class kahapon sa MEC30, ung professor ko tito ni Jen. Equilibrium topic namin tapos tapos na siya magdiscuss edi nagkwento siya. Ni-relate niya nung equilibrium sa life. Bakit may araw at may gabi, bakit hindi nagkakabanggaan ung mga planets at moons, bakit may karma, God's gift ika nga. Bakit hindi magkakamuka ang mga tao, bakit may maganda at pangit. Nasa preference lang at sa mga taong kasama kaya may maganda at pangit. Maging kuntento sa buhay, the best things in life are free. Can you buy happiness? Can you buy sleep? Can you buy friendship? Edi nasa friendship part na nga. Hindi nabibili ung friendship diba? Un nga lang, pag mayaman ka mas marami kang kaibigan, pag mahirap ka less lang. Kaya alamin daw kung sino totoong kaibigan at i-treasure for a lifetime. Habang sinasabi niya un, naiisip ko kayo gutys syempre. Habang nagbabahagi siya ng words of wisdom tungkol dun, iniisip ko "kilala ko na sino sakin at isa ung pamangkin mo dun *inner smile of contentment*". I love you gutys. ♥

PS. Ang galing ni Sir Bong. Project niya ung 100 km road from Saudi to Mecca @.@

2012-01-30T22:21:00.003+08:00

I almost forgot how beautiful NEWS songs sound like. NEWS songs, including songs by TegoMass and Yamashita Tomohisa. I've only been listening to BIGBANG lately that I fear I'd lose my love for NEWS ~~but I know that won't happen~~ so I listened to NEWS again and changed the songs in my playlist. There has been sadness and bitterness since Pi and Ryo left. But now, I don't think I "hate" them anymore. I'm past that stage. I even want to watch Pi's new show and drama but I think I would only feel sad so I decide not to for now. I still love NEWS, regardless of the number of members. NEWS will always be six, just like how they'll always be eight. ♥

2012-01-29T20:12:00.002+08:00

Gusto ko ng ganitong boyfriend at asawa. Ung kumakanta a, hindi ung nagpa-piano.

2012-01-29T03:36:00.002+08:00

Sana gwapo ung magiging boyfriend ko lalo na ung mapapangasawa ko. Ung tipong mga Se7en, Seungri, GD, TOP, Keii, Ryo, Massu, Yamapi. Imposible ata ung gusto ko. Tatanda talaga akong dalaga. High standards -.-

Lantern Festival 01/25/12

2012-01-26T01:52:00.008+08:00

Mapua Institute of Technology celebrates its 87th Founding Anniversary and a new attraction is the Lantern Festival. Eighty seven lanterns were to be lighted and set flying in the evening.

We anticipated for it so much because it was something new. However, we were really disappointed. It was not organized and the lanterns were not launched in the air at the same time. It would've looked a lot better if all the eighty seven lanterns were flying and lighting the sky all at the same time. There were lots of people gathered around the school. We had a hard time getting to the Baluarte. It also would've been better if they closed the road. Cars and pedicabs still went through the crowd and poor them.

Every vehicle that passed through, loud cheers of mockery was sent to them. Mapuans always do this. Before, when there was a bomb threat in the campus, everyone was outside, it was really crowded. Every vehicle that broke the fabric of people received cheers from us. Silly students are silly, but it was fun.

Also, we almost set a fellow student on fire XD. Some of the basketball players were up there with us. Their group was in front of us and when we doubtfully released our lantern, it passed above them. It almost hit one of them, the one who was really really tall. We called out to him "KUYA! KUYA!!!!" but he didn't notice us since he was a foreigner. We were really shocked and we panicked and it felt ridiculous. It happened so fast that I couldn't think of speaking in English to warn him. It was inches above his head. When he finally noticed, all of us were laughing and he said "I've felt the heat! O.O". Duhhhh, of course you'll feel the heat, it almost burned you! Hahaha. That was probably the best part of the Lantern Festival. And also the times when some of the lanterns dropped and landed in the campus, or when some went through the trees. Fortunately, we didn't need the help of the firefighters who were on standby.

Guy on the right was the one who almost got hit by our lantern. XD

Oh and by the way, former President Fidel V. Ramos was the guest speaker for the seminar that was held during the day. Apparently, he's an alumnus. I didn't attend the seminar though.

Tagaytay 01/23/12 Experience

2012-01-23T23:29:00.011+08:00

At last! Was able to take an out of town trip with my friends~ ♥ It was so much fun! It was a bit tiring coz we didn't have a car with us so we had to commute but it was still so much fun.

Met Ezra in Manila early in the morning. Manila in the dark morning is so lonely. I can see the beggars and the homeless everywhere. People sleeping under bridges, some looking for something to eat. While waiting for Ezra, I went inside the convenience store beside Park 'n Ride. There was a man who was opening the door for the customers, he wasn't a security guard though. He had a crutch, sitting on the cold cement outside of the convenience store. How ironic. He was sitting beside the door and helped people get in and out of the shop. When he stood up, he was limping. His other leg can't function well. There was another man not too far from him. When I was inside the store, I observed my surroundings thus I watched them from the other side of the glass wall. He picked up something from the ground. It was a cigarette. A used cigarette with only about a few centimeters left to smoke. Another boy went inside the store. He looked really young...and really thin. At first, he looked like he was just out for an errand. But then I noticed his clothes. His T-shirt was hanging a few inches above his waist, his shorts was too short. It was really cold and he was dressed up like that. I was tempted to give him the shirt that I had in my bag. It's really big for him but that's better than him being cold. But I didn't do it, I didn't help him. He was looking for cups in the garbage bin. When he found one, he filled them with either soda or slurpee. It just makes me real sad to see people like that. And it makes me even more sad to know and feel that I am not yet in the proper position to help them.

Now, on with the fun stuff. So Ezra and I boarded the bus to Tagaytay at 6:30AM. We reached our destination before 9:00AM and neither Neil nor Kevin was there yet! So we walked and went past The Bag of Beans. After a few more minutes, Kevin and Neil joined us. We first went to Kevin's place in Alfonso. His mom and his brother and other relatives were nice to us. We ate brunch there and they gave us a ride to the terminal. We then went to Picnic Grove. We took photos and found a spot that gave us some view of the Taal Lake and the zip line. I think we were really loud and chaotic there. Everyone was looking at us, especially when we were all standing to leave but then we were fooling around with little twigs. Teenagers having fun. After quite some time of just messing around with one another there and eating our snacks, we went out of Picnic Grove and headed to Starbucks, the one beside Dencio's with the view of the Taal Lake. Neil bought pancakes from the Pancake House beside it while me and Ezra bought sandwiches from Starbucks. Ezra gave half of her sandwich to Kevin since she couldn't finish the whole thing. Neil, Kevin, and I also had frappucinos and Ezra had a hot coffee. The cold breeze was really nice to feel and it made me really sleepy adding to the fact that I didn't sleep at all the night before. After minutes of chatting and fooling around we decided it was time to leave. Ezra, Neil, and I went to Robinsons while Kevin went home to get his stuff. We found the Unlimited Cake and Coffee shop that we like so much. Too bad we were already full. So we just went to the other side of the mall, Starbucks was beneath us, where there were no people. Some came but they left quickly. We complained continuously how it was too cold but we never left. It's not everyday that we can experience such coolness and fresh air. After quite some really long time, Kevin still wasn't there. Traffic was building up since everyone was heading towards Manila. So Neil and I bought bottles of Tanduay Ice, one for each of us. He tried the Blue Illusion and I got the Red Mirage. Kevin finally arrived and he helped us open our bottles' lids. We sat down and finished our drinks and went to leave, of course we took pictures first. Oh, I almost forgot. We also got to witness the Dragon Dance the staff at Robinsons did. So yeah, we headed to Olivares, bought some pasalubong, and boarded the bus to Manila. We enjoyed the last minutes of our trip in the bus. We were really loud, again. When we reached SM Bacoor, Neil went off. Kevin, Ezra, and I reached Manila and parted ways.

Fun day is fun. Lovely friends are lovely. Next time we plan to make it an overnight trip. Maybe in March? I don't know. I'm also looking forward to the Batangas trip in April with my high school friends. ♥

2012-01-22T20:04:00.004+08:00

There's this girl in the fandom, I don't really consider her a friend, who is always so negative and it's annoying. She's a NEWS fan. But she's hating on everyone, blaming them for no NEWS activities. Including NEWS members. Before, when Yamapi and Ryo were still in the group, she hated Yamapi. Blaming him for the lack of NEWS activities, jumping into conclusions about this and that. Well, the conclusion did come true but still. Yamapi wasn't even giving out his opinion at that time but she kept on blaming him. Now that Yamapi's gone, it's TegoMass' turn to be under her radar. Saying Yuya's pretending to be someone he's not and just showing us what we fans want to see. Also that he's an attention seeker. I can't believe she would bash a member of the very band that she says she loves. It's annoying, really. How can you say you're a fan of a group when you don't even love all of them? She's having a conversation with Miru now. And it started from Yuya's new white blonde hair. She makes everything seem difficult. Sheesh.

Her: and doesn't he do all these outrageous things to impress or respond to what his fans want?
Miru: and doesn't he do all these outrageous things to impress or respond to what his fans want?
Her: which personality? the real one or his idol one? or is there another one?
Miru: who are we to know his real or idol one, who knows they could be one. So i'm assuming its one so HIS personality.
Her: oh ok its just that someone was explaining to me that his idol personality wasn't the real him who was someone different
Miru: Who knows all of them could be different, but I'd love them the same either way,
Her: interesting cos in many ways it's his personality - the one he shows - that mostly puts me off him - not my kind of thing
Miru: i think alot of them have been told to do this and that character by Johnny, for example I don't think Massu's alw smiley
Her: maybe JE spends time plotting about T.M - but this is what they came up with? But I don't think so, they aren't watched that close
Her: and I see Tegoshi is trending - well that's why he does it - he's one of the most blatant attention seekers I've ever seen
Her: the new hair is just another way to draw attention to himself - and in that respect, he does kind of know what he's doing I guess
Miru: lol if JE spends more time on ppl in the company I doubt TM is number one- or in the top 10. anyway, about tego, I say he's not
Miru: does it coz he's like that; not that he wants attention.
Her: no he wants attention that's what it's all about - it's no accident, he tries really hard to stand out and he doesn't care how
Her: and mostly it's working - the last few times NEWS had anything it was always about Tegoshi as a girl never about NEWS
Miru: Or people just care. I mean anyone can change their hair color to anything loud and stuff but if people don't care its nothing
Miru: it's not like he's pushing NEWS out or anything. He's just making the concert more fun and less idk-- the same.
Her: I dunno - but I keep coming back to the fact that I'm not a fan and so I find a lot of what he does to be annoying - but that's me
Miru: Yeah I guess.
Her: and it's totally part of the reason I need to see NEWS back together

And blah blah blah the conversation goes on about NEWS still not having anything and Johnny's not wanting to give them something. Like what the fuck, girl? What the fucking fuck? Just leave the fandom if you want to, no one's stopping you. We NEWS fans consider ourselves one family and we love NEWS, all of them. We always say positive things, probably one of the influences of our new leader, Keii. But her, she's just different, different from every other fan I know. And to think that her favorite is Keii, her attitude is not acceptable. Everyone is thinking positively to keep moving and supporting NEWS but she just breaks them all.

2012-01-21T21:46:00.002+08:00

Went to the gym earlier with my mom. Mag-sauna dapat kami sa SM Fairview. Edi andun na kami sa loob mga 1 hour na ata andun si mommy inaantay ako matapos magwork out. Tapos bigla kaming nilapitan nung isang consultant may kasama pang guard. Di daw pwede si mommy dun kahit sa sauna kasi delikado daw baka kung ano mangyari kay mommy, nakatungkod kasi si mommy kanina. Dun lang daw siya sa spa pwede. Edi dinala ko sa spa si mommy. Pero 1 hour na siyang nasa loob. Badtrip e tinigil ko na tuloy work out ko. Tapos nabigla ako ata nun kasi sinunod ko lang sinabi nila ng hindi nagrereklamo. Edi binalikan ko na si mommy dun sa spa, aalis na kami sa gym. Tapos dumaan kami sa front desk at inaway sila. Hindi naman sa inaway pero sinabihan namin sila na ayusin nila ung pamamalakad nila. Sana di na nila pinapasok nung umpisa pa lang si mommy para hindi ganun. "Opo" lang ng "opo" ung nagpalabas kay mommy, ung isang babae laki ng mata. Badtrip. Na-English at na-bullshit tuloy sila ni mommy. Mothafuckas. t(>.<)t

Niyaya ko na lang magmovie si mommy at nanood kami ng Sherlock Holmes. Tapos ung katabi ko puta lakas ng boses at over acting. Hindi naman nakakatawa ung scene grabe makatawa. Okay sana kung giggle lang mahina. Pero hindi e, halakhak talaga kapal ng muka parang taga bundok. May kasama siyang lalaki, hindi ko alam kung boyfriend niya. Pero kung boyfriend niya, wow, pano niya nagustuhan un. Pangit pa niya e. Buti kung maganda e pero hindi. Nakakapikon parang si Kim, OA.

New Blog Layout

2012-01-21T04:14:00.002+08:00

Just finished making my new blog layout. Inspired by NEWS, BIGBANG, and 2NE1. Yamashita and Nishikido are even included. ~~Parang ang sakit sa mata, ang liwanag.~~

2012-01-19T22:34:00.004+08:00

Sa mga napagkwentuhan ko, naaalala niyo ba ung sinasabi kong katabi ko na batch 06 sa class ko na 4:30PM - 9PM pag Thursday? Wala lang edi kanina magkaklase kami, AutoCad ung class namin. May tinanong/nagpaturo ako sa kanya nakalimutan ko na kung tungkol saan. Tinuruan niya ko tas sabi ko "salamat". Tapos akala ko di siya sasagot, pero sabi niya "ten pesos". Edi napangiti ako at tumingin sa kanya, siya rin nakatingin sakin nakangiti. Wala lang, di naman kasi kami close para magjoke sa isa't-isa, second meeting pa nga lang namin kanina. Di ko naman sinabing di ko gusto. Wala lang. Kinuha niya pala number ko kasi may itatanong siya tungkol sa site na pagkukuhanan ng notes namin, andito kasi sa bahay kopya ko.

2012-01-17T22:25:00.004+08:00

Pauwi kami ni mommy galing SM Fairview. Iniisip ko pag kinasal na ko kukunin kong ninang si Tita Chu tsaka baka ung magiging boss ko kung close kami tapos sa workplace kami nagkakilala nung asawa ko. Tapos biglang tumugtog ung kanta nung second year high school tayo ung may "lumilipas ang panahon~". Wala lang. Sarap ng feeling.

2012-01-17T02:32:00.002+08:00

One thing I hate about stories focusing on the real world, especially if it's about love, the scenes don't really happen in real life. So I'm watching Heartstrings. Boy like teacher, teacher has boyfriend, girl likes boy, girl decides to forget about the boy, boy starts to like the girl, girl can't forget the boy, they like each other. This does not happen in real life. Guys are not as wonderful as the princes they portray in stories like this. Well maybe princes still exist, but I know none that is not my friend. Friends are off limits, I abide by the rule, no complaint.

2012-01-13T20:28:00.002+08:00

Pumasa ko sa first quiz MEC30, ung subject ko na prof ko ung tito ni Jen. 75 ako. 95 talaga dapat kaya lang ewan ko nagmagic ung calculator ko at mali ung lumabas na value paulit-ulit ko pa chineck. Pinauwi samin ni sir ung paper namin, may check na. Papirmahan daw sa magulang. Pinirmahan ni daddy. Binalik niya sakin tapos sabi "ngayon ka lang nakakuha ng...". Di niya tinuloy. Pero una ko naisip "ngayon ka lang nakakuha ng pasado". Pwede rin naman "ngayon ka lang nakakuha ng 75", implementing na ngayon lang ako nakakuha ng mababa na ganun. Mababa na un sa kanya e. Pero nararamdaman kong ung una ang ibig niyang sabihin. Salamat ama. Sabi pa naman ni Sir Bong samin na kaya niya pinapapirmahan para malaman din naman ng parents namin na mahirap ung ginagawa namin para hindi nila akala na puro pasarap lang kami. Sana katulad din ni Sir Bong mag-isip tatay ko. Bait talaga nun. One time pa sabi niya samin kahit sino walang karapatan murahin ka. Kahit sino wala daw karapatan sabihan ka ng ng "bobo" o "tanga" kahit magulang mo. Wala naman daw bobo o tanga na tao e. Pero pag sinabihan mo ung anak mo ng ganun, iisipin niya daw na ganun talaga siya.

2012-01-10T13:10:00.002+08:00

Nakakainis talaga tong tatay ko kahit kelan. Inuutusan pala ko ni mommy kasi na kunin ung mga sinampay, e hindi ko narinig agad naka earphones kasi ako. Tapos edi lumabas na si daddy para kunin tapos lumabas na rin ako tinulungan ko. Tapos ang dami pang sinabi, tamad daw ako blah blah blah. E andun na nga ako sa labas diba tinutulungan siya. Edi iniwan na niya ko dun ako na lang kumukuha, tapos sabi pa nagbibingibingihan daw nagbubulagbulagan. The fuck. Kinuha ko na nga e.

2012-01-03T17:37:00.002+08:00

Bakit ang magulang pwede murahin ang anak pero ang anak hindi pwede murahin ang magulang?

Bakit may "honor your mother and father" sa Ten Commandments pero walang "honor your children"?

2012-01-01T02:16:00.003+08:00

Happy New Year! Happy NEWS Year!

This entry is inspired by my friend Kevin's first blog post for this year. He listed down some things he wants to achieve. Since I think it really is better to have a draft of your plans or goals, here's mine.

What to achieve/accomplish in 2012:

1. Diet + exercise. Live a healthy life style. At least lose half of the weight I need to lose before April.

2. Go to the gym every Monday, Friday, Saturday, and Sunday.

3. Study. Study. Study and don't feel lazy.

4. Focus. Set my priorities even straighter.

5. Refrain from being late for my classes.

6. Avoid procrastinating.

2011-12-29T23:23:00.002+08:00

Nakakataas talaga ng pride kapag nagsasayaw ako tapos napapansin ako nung nagtuturo/senior sakin. Dati naalala ko nung 2nd year pa tinuturuan kami nila Chico ng sayaw. Tapos may part ang gulo talaga di kami magkasundo ng galaw nila Nhelle. Tapos ako lang ung tama nun sa pagkaka-alala ko o baka di ko nakita ung nasa likod. Tapos tinuro ako ni Lorraine tas basta pinansin nila ung galaw/sayaw ko in a positive way. Tapos sa UP dati nung nagworkshop kami. Tinuturuan kami magwave. Tapos tinignan ako nung nagtuturo tapos sabi tama daw ung ginagawa ko. Tapos sa gym. Dun sa SM Fairview dati. BODYJAM ung class e sayaw un edi sumali ako. Tapos dalawa sila instructor. Tapos pinansin nanaman ako tinuro pa ko tapos nagsenyasan sila tapos nakangiti. E meron ding magagaling dun sumayaw talaga. Sabi nung isang instructor, para daw audition nun para maging instructor kasi ang galing daw namin. Tapos kanina. Sa SM North naman ako, Hiphop ung class. Tapos facing the mirror na, nasa harap ako. Pinapanood kami nung instructor. Tapos meron part parang ang gulo na nila sa likod, pati ung instructor ATA nalito na kung ano na ung tamang step. Tapos tinignan niya ko, pinapanood ung sayaw ko hanggang sa nakuha niya ulit ung tamang rhythm. Parang ako ung ginawang guide. Wala lang. Ang sarap lang ng feeling. Kaya lang may isang nangyayari talaga kapag pinupuna ung sayaw ko e. Nagkakamali ako. Hahaha. Nakaka-inis e. Okay na e, ang galing ko na, pinansin na ko nung nagtuturo. Tapos magkakamali ako. Amp. Nadidistract kasi ako e. Hahaha. Kaya please, wag niyo ipahalata sakin na pinapansin niyo ung sayaw ko in a positive way hanggat di pa tapos ung sayaw. Sabihin niyo na lang after. Haha.

2011-12-28T01:40:00.001+08:00

Aish, if a guy tells me this...I don't know. I originally wanted to say "I'd melt" but that's just a metaphor.

"Smile for me, it looks cute on you."

2011-12-27T01:15:00.001+08:00

Anita Blake series. So much killing and supernatural stuff that opposes Christianity. Yet it’s a novel that tells you what is right and what is wrong. It teaches you to stick to your principles. Even with the vampires and ghouls and zombie raising, it tells you that there is no one greater than God.

2011-12-26T14:38:00.003+08:00

There's this Twitter account/user named FAKEKOYAMA and there's another one, Mrs_Koyama. And they are friggin ROLEPLAYING. I can't see Mrs_Koyama's tweets coz it's a private account. But I've just followed FAKEKOYAMA and I can see "his" replies.

My reaction was/is always "HUL!!! ><" and then I'll smile and laugh to myself. :))) Oh fans. It's amazing what they, what WE, can do. :))

2011-12-25T15:10:00.002+08:00

Kakauwi ko lang galing Trinoma/SM North. Habang pauwi, nagmamadali ung feeling ko. Gustong gusto ko na umuwi kasi magbblog ako. Nung nakapila kami ng tita ko dun sa may terminal sa SM North, may nakita akong gwapo naglalakad papunta sa entrance. Edi nakita ko nga tapos napatingin siya sakin as in saglit lang. E ang liit ng muka niya di ko masyado makita kasi payat siya tapos ung buhok niya nakasagabal sa muka niya so tinitignan ko pa rin para masure ko na gwapo nga. Tapos nakita ko na, gwapo nga. Kamuka ni Mizushima Hiro. SHIT. Tapos napatingin ulit siya sakin. Naka- o.o pa rin ako sa kanya habang kinakausap ako ng tita ko. Tapos parang awkward tapos tumingin na siya ng diretso sa nilalakaran niya. Edi shinake ko ung sarili ko metaphorically tapos tumingin na ko sa tita ko, pinipigilan ko ung ngiti ko. Alam niyo un. May gwapong lalaki na kamuka ni Mizushima Hiro na di ko maalala kung long sleeves ba ung suot niya o hindi basta black tapos mahaba buhok black din tapos otaku hairstyle. Tapos tinitigan ko siya, star struck. Tapos nahuli niya ko. Ano kaya iniisip niya. First time ko napa-gawk para sa lalaki. Inisip ko si Mico e pero hindi, iba talaga dating nito. Tapos pinigilan ko nga ung ngiti ko nung pinansin ko na ung tita ko at iniisip ko na I was staring at this heavenly creature at nahuli niya ko habang sinasabihan ko ng “Ha? Ano un?” ung tita ko. Life is indeed good. Sana makita ko siya ulit. Kanina nga inimagine ko na na kunyari nagkita kami ulit tapos usap usap tapos “parang nakita na kita dati” tapos mare-realize ko na siya un. XD

May bagong upuan na nga pala ko. Hehe.

2011-12-24T23:07:00.001+08:00

Dear Mom,

Don't tell me to understand what you're feeling when you don't even consider mine.

Sincerely,
Your tired daughter.

P.S. Merry Christmas.

2011-12-24T16:54:00.000+08:00

Gusto ko sana mag-cake. Ayaw ako bigyan ni daddy ng pambili. Ayoko gastusin pera ko. Merry Christmas.

2011-12-21T02:18:00.003+08:00

I love my friends~ had a great time with them ~~earlier~~ yesterday. Sherwin had his post birthday celebration and it kind of turned out to be our Christmas party also. Before heading to his place, I went to SM Fairview to buy stuff for myself~
Say hello to my new Starbucks thermos/tumbler and my box of green tea! I just started with my green tea therapy. Green tea really does taste like leaf :)) but it's all right. I'd be used to it in no time.

Say hi to my new flash drive~ I have one again, at last!

Last but definitely not the least, meet my new ring! It's a gift from Jen. She also gave other versions to Lara and Mickee. Thanks dear~ ♥

2011-12-19T19:14:00.003+08:00

Nasa labas pa lang ako ng bahay naririnig ko na si daddy sumisigaw. *sigh* Puro sigaw nakakarindi. Nagpadala si ate kasi ng $600 for Christmas. 100 kami lahat each pati si Lance at kuya tapos ung natiranng 100 para sa bahay. Tapos kunin ko na ung akin 43php ung conversion. Edi P4300 kinuha ko. Ayan sinumbatan pa ko ni daddy. Pati 300 daw kukunin ko pa e kuha daw ako ng kuha tapos ung kinakain ko pa blah blah. E kaya nga may sobrang $100 diba? Para sa bahay. Hanggang napunta sa grades ko. Kuha daw ako ng kuha tapos dadating daw dito ung grades ko nakalagay may dropped subject. Sabi ko kaya ako nagddrop para hindi bumagsak. Ngayon lang daw siya nakakita nun. Kay ate at kuya daw wala, may reward pa nga daw siya sa kanila e. Buti pa sa kanila may reward, syempre gaganahan mag-aral un. Ako wala. Di rin naman kasi ako nakakakuha ng 1.0 bukod sa P.E. Pero para sakin kasi makakuha ako ng 3.0 masaya na ko. Pagtumaas ng 3.0, kunware mga 2.75 o 2.5, tuwang tuwa na ko. Alam niyo un. Ako rin naman kasi may kasalanan kung bakit ako bumabagsak at nagddrop pero pag nag-aral naman ako, hirap na hirap ako. Tapos tres lang makukuha ko. Tapos wala lang sa kanila. E para sakin achievement na un. Nainis na ko sabi ko hindi naman ako sila ate at kuya. Iba school ko, iba course ko. Sabi ko pa kung dun ako sa school nila at ung course nila ung course ko, baka puro uno na ko. Mayabang na kung mayabang pero it's the truth. Kaya kong pumasa, kasalanan ko kung bakit ako bumabagsak at nagddrop. Kaya ko pumasa pero bago ko pumasa sobrang hirap tapos tres lang ung grade ko. Mahirap mag-aral tapos susumbatan ka pa. Anong magagawa ko? Di pa talaga ko makakacontribute dito sa bahay. Wala pa kong trabaho e. Anong gusto niya? Magstop na ko tapos magtrabaho na para may maibigay sa kanila? Sabi pa tignan daw niya kung may mararating ako sa ganung grades. Thank you, pinaalala mo pa. Sabi ko sige tignan niya, antayin niya para malaman niyang tama siya at wala ng ako mararating. No sarcasm. Maguilty na lang siya at maawa pag nakita niyang tama nga siya at napaka-unsuccessful ko at naghihirap.

At least may dahilan na ko sa kanila pag dumating ung grades ko para ngayong term na puro bagsak ako. "Ayaw niyo ko magdrop diba? Ayan hindi ako nagdrop."

2011-12-18T19:32:00.002+08:00

Just finished watching Gossip Girl's 10th episode. Nag-crash ung car na sinasakyan ni Blair at Chuck. Tapos nasa hospital silang lahat. Si Blair daw responsive. Tapos si Chuck.... Walang sinabi. Umiyak si Lily. Nagmamadali ung mga doctor papuntang room nila Chuck. Nasa hospital nga lahat diba edi andun Dan, Serena, at Nate. Tapos friends nila naaksidente. Tapos ung isa delikado ewan ko anong nangyari. Wala lang. The friendship. Naisip ko lang ung pain, fear, at pag-aalala na naffeel nila nung time na un dun sa story.

2011-12-18T12:45:00.001+08:00

Kapal ng muka nitong tatay ko kahit kelan. Bastos pa. Kausap namin ni mommy si ate sa phone tapos sumisigaw siya ipadala daw agad ung pamasko niya ibabayad niya daw sa ilaw. Nagpaparinig lang siya kay mommy e kasi hindi pa maka-withdraw si mommy kasi ipapakita pa sa US Embassy ung account niya. Putangina mukang pera. Nakakapikon. Di makatawag si ate na hindi sinasabihan ng tungkol sa pera. Wow lang. Kapal talaga nakakapikon amputa. Bastos.

2011-12-18T12:13:00.001+08:00

2011-12-17T23:27:00.003+08:00

I stand corrected. The Anita Blake series does not have 18 books. It has 20.

2011-12-17T12:08:00.001+08:00

Dapat ib-blog ko to kagabi kaya lang walang kwenta ung net ko.

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Akjagsdrfkjayhfkjhasgkjh hindi na ko makapaghintay. Dinownload ko ung pdf ng Guilty Pleasures. Ano kasi ung bida, si Anita Blake, vampire hunter/executioner at animator (bumubuhay ng patay, in other words, gumagawa siya ng zombie), pero tao siya a as in human. Tas basta may nangyari. Tapos dahil una ko nabasa ung first chapter nung fifteenth book, alam ko nang magiging boyfriend niya ung isang vampire dito, si Jean-Claude. Tapos kasi ni-knock out siya, si Anita, nung isang vampire na si Aubrey. Nagka-concussion si Anita. Ung master ni Aubrey naman, na master nilang lahat kasi siya ung pinakamatandang vampire at pinakamalakas, ayaw ipagamot si Anita hanggang after nung meeting nila. E mamamatay si Anita nun. Tapos nung susuka na si Anita, hinawakan siya ni Jean-Claude at ewan basta na-ease ung pain ni Anita tapos ang bilis ng recovery niya. Edi tinanong niya bat ganun daw ang bilis mawala nung nafifeel niya. Tapos...

Jean-Claude looked at me, beautiful face unreadable. His dark eyes stared
into mine. They were still just eyes.
“Go on, master vampire, tell her. See how grateful she is.”
Jean-Claude stared at me, watching my face. “You are badly hurt, a
concussion. But Nikolaos will not let us take you to a hospital until
this…interview is over with. I feared you would die or be unable to…function.”
I had never heard his voice so uncertain. “So I shared my life-force with
you.”
I started to shake my head. Big mistake. I pressed hands to my forehead. “I
don’t understand.”
He spread his hands wide. “I do not have the words.”
“Oh, allow me,” Theresa said. “He has taken the first step to making you a
human servant.”
“No.” I was still having trouble thinking clearly, but I knew that wasn’t
right. “He didn’t try to trick me with his mind, or eyes. He didn’t bite me.”
“I don’t mean one of those pathetic half-creatures that have a few bites
and do our bidding. I mean a permanent human servant, one that will never be
bitten, never be hurt. One that will age almost as slowly as we do.”
I still didn’t understand. Perhaps it showed in my face because Jean-Claude
said, “I took your pain and gave you some of my…stamina.”
“Are you experiencing my pain, then?”
“No, the pain is gone. I have made you a little harder to hurt.”
I still wasn’t taking it all in, or maybe it was just beyond me. “I don’t
understand.”
“Listen, woman, he has shared with you what we consider a great gift to be
given only to people who have proven themselves invaluable.”
I stared at Jean-Claude. “Does this mean I am in your power somehow?”
“Just the opposite,” Theresa said, “you are now immune to his glance, his
voice, his mind. You will serve him out of willingness, nothing more. You see
what he has done.”

…….KINIKILIG AKO SHIT LANG TAPOS NAIISIP KO 18 BOOKS TO 18 BOOKS TAPOS KINIKILIG AKO VAMPIRE GAAAHH NGAYON KO LANG TO NAFEEL. DI GANITO KILA EDWARD CULLEN. ETO UNG VAMPIRE NA POWERFUL TALAGA TAPOS UNG BABAE HINDI NAMAN HELPLESS, NAO-OPPOSE NIYA NGA UNG DEEDS NG VAMPIRES E. PERO PERO PERO ETO UNG VAMPIRE NA PWEDE NIYA PAGKATIWALAAN KAHIT AYAW NIYA TAPOS ANG MANLY AT POWERFUL AT GAGAWIN UNG DI NIYA TALAGA PWEDE GAWIN PARA LANG MALIGTAS NIYA UNG BABAE KASI NO CHOICE NA SIYA AYAW NIYA MAMATAY UNG BABAE TAPOS TAWAG NIYA PA “MA PETITE”. *abuse of capslock*

So hindi na ko natulog…

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Parang ayoko na magbasa ng parts na wala si Jean-Claude. Hindi na ko pumuntang Mapua kasi habang hinihintay ko ung iniinit kong tubig, nakatulog ako tapos nagising ako ng 9AM. Hanggang 8:30AM lang pwede magpa verify. Ang galing ko. Sige, unahin magbasa ng novel.

2011-12-16T12:06:00.001+08:00

So ako nga nag-edit nung video project namin para sa Physics. Tapos dapat mapasa siya before 8AM kanina. Tapos nakatulog ako. At nagising ako ng 9AM. Nakatulog ako at nagising ako 1 hour late dun sa deadline. Tapos ang daming messages at tawag sa phone ko, group mates ko, isa si Ezra dun. Ayoko nung feeling. Bat ba ko nakatulog. Pinayagan naman kami nung prof at nasend ko na sa kanya. Pero ayoko pa rin. Disappointed ako sa sarili ko. At alam kong si Ezra rin. OK lang kung ung ibang group mates e, pero si Ezra kaibigan ko kasi. Isipin niyo kung kayo gutys ung kagroup niyo tapos nangyari un. Nagpresent pa ko na gumawa tapos ganun rin pala. Napasa na namin pero kahit na.

2011-12-15T02:00:00.004+08:00

Dahil nakalimutan ko kung pano mag-edit ng lomo effect, inaral ko ulit at eto ang tatlong bersyon.

Hmm...parang mas gusto ko na ngayon lomo effect kesa plain cross-processing. Mehehe.

2011-12-15T01:16:00.003+08:00

Ang sarap talaga humawak ng DSLR. Kanina kasi nagshoot nga kami ng video para sa project edi dala ni Ezra ung DSLR nila. After magshoot, edi nagpicture picture na kami. Edi tinanong ko si Ezra pano i-focus tas di niya alam kasi Fuji ung DSLR nila, parang Nikon medyo complicated gamitin di tulad ng Canon. Edi ayun nga, picture picture. Ikot ikot nung pang zoom chaka nung isa pang iniikot dun na panglabo. Voila~ nadiscover ko ung focus thingy~ :))

Pero hindi pa yan ung maayos talaga. Kailangan pa nga ng flash niyan para kita talaga e. Tapos maya maya ulit nung nasa Krispy Kreme na kami. Galaw galaw, ikot ikot. Viola! Ung maayos na focus kahit walang flash homeged @.@ ang pangit pa ng kuha ko kasi tinatry ko lang.

Wala, ang sarap lang ng feeling. Kasi hindi akin ung DSLR tapos nagawa ko un ng hindi sinasabi sakin nung may-ari. Plus, hindi kasi ako photographer talaga kaya iba ung feeling. :)) Ayun, wala lang.

2011-12-14T23:01:00.004+08:00

So itong araw na to, maraming nangyari. Magkahalong masaya at hindi. Unang nangyari ay nalate ako sa exam ko kanina ng 45 minutes. Nalate ako dahil may naiwan ako sa bahay na kailangan ko at binalikan ko pa tapos traffic sa may Quiapo. So ayun nga. Mage-exam ako dapat pero wala ung proctor namin sa room, wala na rin questionnaire at answer sheet sa table. Tapos tinanong ko ung proctor sa kabilang room, ung prof ko dun sa subject na un, un din pala ung proctor namin. E ayoko siya kausapin. Nabbwisit talaga ko dahil kinompute na niya ung grade ko at kahit iperfect ko ung finals, 64% lang ako e 70% ung passing. Papano kasi nagmake-up exam ako sa kanya tapos 25/100 lang ako wala man lang effort points. E hindi ako prepared at may finals ako nung araw na un, syempre bagsak ako. Nung nanghihingi naman ako sa kanya dati, di niya ko binibigyan lagi next meeting na lang. So ayun.

Tapos ung project naman namin sa Physics kanina namin sinimulan. Akala ko naman ang dami naming ishu-shoot. Tapos sobrang konti lang, nagmamadali nanaman umuwi ung iba nakakapikon. Tapos ako mage-edit ngayon kasi feeling ko pagbinigay namin sa kanila, walang mangyayari.

Tapos ung Christmas party namin kila Jezzelle bukas, hindi na tuloy kasi may exam si Neil hanggang 5PM. E hindi daw pwede kila Jezzelle ng gabi. Tapos sa Friday hindi rin pwede si Jezzelle. Tapos sa Saturday si Ezra naman hindi pwede. Tapos next week, hindi na pwede si Kevin. So hindi namin alam ngayon kung kelan kami. Pero masaya rin naman kanina. Kasama ko si Neil, Ezra, Kevin, Jamie, Julius (boyfriend ni Jamie), at Danica. Kumain kami sa The Old Spaghetti House at tumambay sa Krispy Kreme. Masaya lang miss ko na kasi sila kaya lang hindi kami kumpleto. Pag magkakasama kami, masaya lang. Hindi naman katulad nung kila Cindie na puro tawa. Basta masaya. Ganito feeling ko lagi after finals tapos nagkikita kami.

Tapos habang nasa Krispy Kreme kami, naka-chat ko si Angelo. Hindi daw siya pwede sa Loreland dahil nag-iipon daw siya para sa event nila. Kahit Eastwood din hindi siya sasama. So ibig sabihin, hindi na rin pwede si Jen sa Loreland. Sayang lang. Kasi na-excite na talaga ako e. Feeling ko kasi papayagan sila at matutuloy kami. Gusto ko kasi talaga ma-experience, lalo na baka last Christmas na namin with Mickee tapos may trabaho na kami pag nagkita kami ulit. So ayun nga, pinayagan na si Kevin, si Lara rin ata. O diba pinayagan na. Tapos hindi kami tuloy. Mukang hindi na rin naman kami mag-Eastwood kasi wala pa rin si Angelo nun. So malamang kila Sherwin na lang kami. Boring pero magkakasama kami. Pero boring pa rin. Kung ituloy naman namin Loreland, hindi ganun kasaya kasi wala si Angelo at si Jen. Kung mag-Eastwood naman kami, wala si Angelo.

Lahat na ng lakad ko naudlot. Ang boring ata ng Christmas ko ngayon. Magsasaya na lang ako mag-isa. Si Mark pa pala di rin makakasama samin nila Neil, kasama siya dapat e. Wala lang. Siguro bukas hindi na ko maiinis. Pero ngayon disappointed pa rin ako. Hindi ko alam kung anong maganda gagawin ko ngayon Christmas para maging memorable.

EDIT: So hindi rin ata makakasama si Jesse sa Christmas party.

Jes: ui

Me: sasama ka ba sa xmas party?

Jes: san ba? when and where :(

Me: di pa alam e.basahin mo ung sa groups.20-21 daw

Bat ba ko umasa na sasama siya.

2011-12-12T06:52:00.001+08:00

This is what my table and I look like right now.

2011-12-09T06:42:00.002+08:00

Talagang kapag sobrang busy, sobrang stressed, walang tulog, at may importanteng exam ako chaka sila nakikisabay sa mood dito sa bahay. Diba dapat ako lang ung cranky? E bat pati sila nakikisali? Aga aga magmumura. Putangina niyo rin. Tantanan niyo ko. Kung gusto niyo mag-away, pwede ba pag-alis ko na ng bahay para di madamay mood ko? Kawawa naman ung anak niyong napakabait na nagbabayad ng tuition ko. Nagpapakahirap magtrabaho tapos nasasayang ung pera sakin dahil nawawala ako sa mood mag-aral dahil sa inyo.

2011-12-03T21:53:00.001+08:00

I was asked twice yesterday why I don't engage in relationships. :))

2011-12-01T21:25:00.001+08:00

WOOOOOOOOOOOO PUTANGINA WALA BANG TAHIMIK NA LUGAR DITO PUTANGINA MATULOG NA KAYONG LAHAT MGA BWISIT GAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHH

2011-12-01T21:20:00.001+08:00

Putangina ang ingay dito may sumisigaw may umiiyak putangina lalong nagugulo utak ko bwisit.

2011-12-01T20:12:00.003+08:00

PUTANG INA MO!

Sarap sumigaw at magmura.

Di na ko nagsasalita dito sa bahay. Di ko sila pinapansin. Kahit ano sabihin nila sakin, awayin nila ko, di na ko nagsasalita. Putangina lang. Feeling ko isang araw di ko na kaya pigilan bibig ko at mumurahin ko na sila. Ayoko sila murahin, nanay at tatay ko pa rin sila. Sana tumigil na sila, lalo na ung nanay ko, para di na dumating ung araw na un. Sana magfast forward ang buhay para makaalis na ko dito. Para di ko na marinig boses ng nanay ko. Nakakapikon kasi nag-aaral ako dito. May project kasi akong ipapasa bukas tapos may dalawang exam ako. Tapos kung anu-ano sinasabi sakin. Di daw ako tumutulong. Kain lang daw ako ng kain. Nagpapalaki lang daw ako ng _______. Sige, sige. Salita lang kayo dyan. Magpasalamat kayo at di ako sumasagot...at the moment.

2011-11-30T21:20:00.003+08:00

Saw this on Twitter and I immediately exclaimed an offended reaction. Suddenly taking in a heap of air with the same feeling that "HUL!" gives off.

Does he feel like it'll make him look cool to be saying stuff like that? NO WAY, GAY.

Oh, and obviously, I give a freakin damn that I'm still single this Christmas. But if it was someone else who said that, probably someone who has got the looks to back it up, I probably won't feel insulted.

2011-11-28T22:12:00.002+08:00

Grabe kapikon dito sa bahay. Wala kasi kaming ref, nasira tapos ayaw na bumili ni daddy. So kapag gusto ng malamig na tubig, bumibili na lang ng yelo tapos nilalagay sa cooler. Tapos ngayon nagtimpla kasi ako ng juice tapos kukuha ako ng malamig na tubig. Pag tingin ko parang may mga white na ewan edi sabi ko madumi. Tas tinignan ni daddy tapos sabi niya di raw dumi un. Edi sabi ko may puti nga syempre dumi un. Tapos sabi sakin edi wag daw ako kumuha. Di nga ako kumuha. Pero naiinis ako. Alam niyo ung ngayon lang ako kumain ngayong buong araw tapos pagod ako sa school tapos iniisip ko pa ung putanginang project namin tapos gusto ko lang uminom ng malamig na juice tapos walang malamig na tubig. Ano bang klaseng bahay to mas mahirap pa kami sa squater e bwisit. Ayoko naman lumabas at bumili sa tindahan ng yelo para sa isang baso kong juice dahil hindi nga ako lumalabas ng bahay pag andito ako. Ayoko sa community namin kaya dito lang ako sa kwarto. Tapos naisip ko ngayon lang sana nga pumunta na lang ako dun sa grocery sa tapat at bumili ng soda. Kaya lang may juice na ko dito. Pag nag soda pa ko baka sumakit tiyan ko...

2011-11-27T19:19:00.001+08:00

Friends, lagi kayong makipag-usap sakin tungkol sa future. Kung anong mga bibilhin at gagawin at gano na tayo kayaman nun. I think it's the only way for me to get motivated. Ngayon ung mood ko aral na aral nanaman. Kailangan kong maimagine ung magiging buhay ko in the future kung mag-aral ako at maging successful. Kaya lang kapag mag-isa ko siyang iniisip para akong nagde-daydream lang kaya kailangan ko ng kausap para mafeel kong pwede talaga mangyari un pag nag-aral ako. Salamat.

2011-11-27T19:03:00.003+08:00

Ayoko talaga kapag sakin nagsasabi si mommy ng mga reklamo niya tungkol kay daddy. Alam ko dapat ako makinig pero nakakapikon e, naririndi na ko. Bat di niya sabihin kay daddy mismo, bat sakin pa. Tapos paulit-ulit pa nakakainis talaga. WALA AKONG PAKIALAM. Pwede ba tumigil sila lalo na kapag nag-aaral ako. Nakita na ngang nagsusulat ako, hala sige satsat pa rin. Wala akong pakialam sa mga problema nila sawang sawa na ko makinig. Wala akong pakialam kung may problema kami sa pera. Responsibilidad nilang paaralin ako. Mag-aaral ako. Wag nila akong guluhin. Magta-trabaho ako para may pera na ko at ibabalik ko sa kanila ginastos nila sakin para matahimik na sila. Nakakarindi lang ung mga away at reklamo dito sa bahay puro tungkol sa pera tangina salita nang salita pero may pera pa naman talaga. Kapikon. Magpapayaman ako at bibigyan ko sila ng pera para tumigil na sila. Wag lang nila ko guluhin, please lang. Wala talaga akong pakialam kung wala na kaming pera at kung may babae si daddy o kung ano man. Basta paaralin nila ko, bigyan ng allowance, at bilhan ng mga kailangan ko. I'm selfish like that.

2011-11-26T19:44:00.005+08:00

Soooo this is what my nails look like now.

I painted them last night but now they look ugly and not elegant at all. So I'm planning to paint them again but I'm torn between these two colors:

Which one should I use?

2011-11-24T22:56:00.005+08:00

Have you ever imagined getting home from school or work, and you see your boyfriend or husband on the couch like this?

Did you ever think of what your reaction would be? I certainly did.

2011-11-23T05:37:00.001+08:00

5:30 in the morning and first thing I hear from my dad is "PUTANGINA!".

2011-11-22T17:12:00.000+08:00

Aiyoo I feel bad TT TT I told my friend I can't make it to wherever we're going. She seems disappointed. But what can I do? It's really a busy week, I have an exam too. I want to meet her though. I really do feel bad and sorry. TT TT

2011-11-18T23:52:00.001+08:00

Just finished watching I am Number Four. So cool.

"Who are you?"

"Number six."

Hell yeah I'm number six! Hear that backyardigans? I'm number six! B)

2011-11-16T01:19:00.001+08:00

Gusto ko magshift ng course at school pero wala naman kaming pera para dun.

2011-11-14T10:53:00.002+08:00

Ahhh~ di nanaman ako pumasok sa English at Engineering Economy ko. Hindi ko nga alam kung papasok pa ko ng Physics at Differential Equation e. Bakit ba dito sa Pilipinas, kahit high school graduate ka na mahirap pa rin kumuha ng matinong trabaho? Kailangan pa tuloy magkolehiyo. Tinatamad nanaman ako. Ayoko na mag-aral talaga. Gusto ko naman course ko e, gusto ko maging engineer. Pero gusto ko rin maging fashion designer. Kung may pera kaya kami at nag-Fashion Design ako agad e hindi ako magiging ganito? Hindi ko mafi-feel 'yong ganito? Di ko alam ano dapat kong gawin para umayos ulit sa studies. Kaya ko naman e, kayang kaya ko. Gusto ko rin naman ayusin. Pero mas malaki 'yong part sa'kin na ayaw na talaga. Naiisip ko rin ate ko, naaawa ako siya kasi nagpapa-aral sa'kin. Pero di ko magawa 'yong best ko. Parang ayoko gawin 'yong best ko. Iniisip ko nanaman nga ulit magdrop kanina e. Lagi ko na lang sinasabi "last term na to na tatamarin ako, aayusin ko na, promise" at "last day na to na maga-absent ako, hahabol ako promise". Humahabol ako lagi. 'Yon na lang lagi ung situation. Sabi ko sa start ng term na to ang goal ko is 1.0 para kung hindi ko man maabot, at least nasa mga 2.0 naman siguro ako. Pero ito nanaman, pumasa lang okay na. Maghahabol para pumasa. Same old story blah blah.

2011-11-14T02:06:00.003+08:00

Just finished watching Come To Play SM Town Special. It was very funny and very touching. They're like a real family, true friends in deed. In the last portion, they talked about their honest feelings about one another. Said sorry, said thank you. Even though not all of them are of the same age, they're still really close. Even though some are guys, and some are girls, it wasn't a burden to their friendship. And then I check my Facebook and I see my best friend's post in our FB group. I just remembered my friends. What if we had the chance to be honest and tell everyone what we really feel. I'd probably apologize for the times that I seem selfish and bitchy and too nosy. But of course, I'd like to thank all of you for taking care of me. You were all friends already since grade school and I joined in high school. I'm glad you all didn't make it hard for me to fit in. Come to think of it, before I met y'all, I wasn't really the I'll-do-anything-I-like type. I just followed everyone and did what they did. When you became my friends, I learned about individuality and being unique in a good way. We are all different but we still manage to get along well. I'm actually jealous of y'all also because you seem very close with your family. When I have a problem with my family, I don't really give you details and I don't know if you're like that as well but I assume you don't experience the same problems that I do. Up until now, I have secrets that none of you know. When it's not good around the house and I'm upset, I always want to go out and I take it on my studies. I'm sorry if I've caused you trouble and disturbance. But thank you for your understanding even though I don't tell you anything. Thank you for being my friends, you all seem like family to me. I just felt like thanking and apologizing to you. Love y'all. ♥

2011-11-08T20:24:00.002+08:00

I so love Christmas season. It's so nice to see all the decors and Christmas lights around town, especially at night. It's so ironic though, since my family doesn't really spend it so nicely. We just cook food and put up decorations but that's all. There's no gathering whatsoever, nor is there any kind of activity. We don't even wait for the clock to tick 12 midnight. And we don't eat together. Just another ordinary day. It's the 18th Christmas I'll be spending on my own. Friends with their families. Family sleeping, dad probably drunk. No boyfriend. I still love Christmas though. I don't know why, but it's definitely my favorite holiday and season. Just looking at the decors and lights, listening to songs, Christmas and party ones. They make me happy.

2011-11-03T19:54:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday, Ryo-chan.

2011-10-12T00:32:00.004+08:00

Before the show itself, Koyama expressed his views about the new NEWS. I don't exactly remember what he said, but it was something similar to what he said on news every. He also said he wants to protect NEWS from now on too, and hopes that everyone will continue to support him. He said that he will forever be Koyama Keiichiro of NEWS. Something like that. I believe someone would post a proper translation after the recordings are available.

After that, they aired the recorded K-chan NEWS episode which was recorded before 7 October. The gap was shocking because Koyama sounded like he was going to cry any moment when expressing his feelings. The show itself was really fun. Koyama and Tegomasu as guests. They really sounded like they are having fun, which really made me love NEWS much more.

Shortly after Koyama's message, ずっとNEWS (Forever NEWS) started trending on Twitter Japan. Many fans were very touched by his message and said that they would continue supporting the new NEWS on Twitter.

Just a while later, バンビーナ (Bambina, the song by NEWS) trended as well because Massu was made to sing it on the show as a punishment for lying a few weeks ago.

It's so assuring and encouraging to see that the Japanese fans are still so supportive of the new NEWS.

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Koyama Keiichiro's message before K-chan NEWS:

Good Evening, this is Koyama Keiichiro of NEWS. I believe you would already know, as of last week, 7 October, Yamapi and Ryo-chan, fellow members of NEWS who have worked with us until now, have left the group. This was a conclusion made after repeated meetings and discussions. To all listeners who have always been listening to K-chan NEWS, I am really, really sorry for having caused you so much worries. For the sake of all the fans who have been waiting for us, I did not want NEWS to just end. I want to protect the NEWS which we have built up together with all our fans with my life. To be honest, now I feel that I want to march forward further and further from now on, together with the fans, hand in hand. I really love NEWS. Also, from now on, we will work to the maximum of our capabilities, so please continue to support the newly-born 4-member NEWS, with me, Koyama Keiichiro, Kato Shigeaki, Masuda Takahisa and Tegoshi Yuya. I believe that it would be a very tough road from now on, but we have decided (to walk it). The 4 of us will fight hard together. Please take care of us.

And, K-chan NEWS will continue to be cheerfully aired weekly, having our members as guests. We feel that it would be the utmost happiness if you would listen to this radio show and just, even for a little, smile and laugh. So, tonight's guest is Tegomass! The atmosphere will now turn into a playful one filled with excitement, you won't even believe it. (laughs) The excitement level will change suddenly, umm, please enjoy the show! As such, thank you for listening (to the message). That was all from Koyama Keiichiro, a member of NEWS until now, who, from now on too, will always be a member of NEWS.

Source: beastrife @ LJ

2011-10-10T22:29:00.001+08:00

All of this is just too much for an eighteen year old.

I FEEL SO ALONE.

2011-10-10T22:18:00.003+08:00

This week really is the worst. Yamapi and Ryo leaving NEWS. And then this. I wish I could tell you all everything, but I can't.

How will you know when you've gone too far? Of course you'll know that instantly. How will you stop yourself from doing it again if that's your only way of handling things?

Most of the time, I act tough and make it seem like I don't care. When I decide to interfere, I still act tough. Too tough that it's just really too much. So should I just shut myself down? But what if something even worse happens if I retract myself from everything?

"I'd rather they think I'm an asshole. I'd rather they think I don't love them. I'd rather they think I don't respect them. I'd rather hurt them emotionally than see someone else hurt them physically."

2011-10-08T23:52:00.002+08:00

2011-10-07T22:17:00.006+08:00

Yamashita Tomohisa and Nishikido Ryo, members of the popular idolgroup NEWS announced today through their agency Johnny's that they are withdrawing from the group.

Yamashita will continue with his solo projects, Nishikido will continue as a member of Kanjani8. Koyama Keiichirou, Katou Shigeaki, Tegoshi Yuya and Masuda Takahisa will continue as NEWS, now a 4-member group.

Source

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Ryo: having to have worked with NEWS and Kanjani8 has given me valuable experiences and NEWS fans who supported me, thank you. the schedule problems can't be solved no matter how hard the groups try to adjust,the situation just might be difficult when tours and CD debuts come, especially when both groups release. This led me to make this decision. For Koyama, Katou, masuda, Tegoshi, may the new NEWS go on for many years.

Yuya: NEWS fans have waited a long time for activities. To everyone, I want to say "I'm sorry". Also, toeveryone who gave their love and support, we will work hard. The shape (the group number most probably) have changed but the love we have for each other won't change. From now on, Thank you.

Shige: this time around the results have come out and from now on please support the new NEWS. Please continue supporting us 4 Members NEWS.

Keii: this has been discussed repeatedly and ended with this decision. Having seperate activities,it took us 8 years to be 4 NEWS. More than ever, we will be thriving forward. Please keep supporting us.

Massu: I love NEWS and the members created a future with a treasured friendship. Friends as well as fans who have been supporting and loving is important for NEWS. But now with 2 separate activites, we will work hard to not change and keep a head on.

Pi: Working in a group called NEWS, and having fans root for us has become a great asset for me. Now, this is a challenge in the future. I know there will be alot of inconvenience to come and i feel like it will be hard, and at this point I would like to work hard with every single experience I had with NEWS. The next 5 members will be good rivals and I want to do my best.

Translations by Miru.
Miru: Translating statement release the way I understand them. Don't trust it but its a jizz of what they said more or less.

Thank you very much for being the awesome leader that you are, Pi.
EDIT: I hope it's clear that this ^ is a statement full of sarcasm. For now at least.

2011-09-29T01:07:00.000+08:00

Onga pala, enrollment na mamaya. Wala nanaman akong pang tuition.

2011-09-29T00:49:00.002+08:00

Things do never change in this household. Past twelve o'clock and I wake to my mom and dad's voices, shouting, dad's was louder. They were trying to make Lance drink his medicine but the kiddo refused and spilled his meds. The kid's sleep was interrupted yet you shout at him, he definitely won't obey anything you say. Stupid adults. You've raised, what? Three children? Yet you don't know how to deal with this one? And so I went to their room and, voila, Lance drank his medicine when I talked him down.

Stupid, stupid adults.

2011-09-26T01:25:00.002+08:00

So I watched bits of Ryo and Gakki's drama, Zenkai Girl. They love each other here but they're not together. Gakki is engaged to someone else and Ryo has a girlfriend. Just...the frustration and the drama. I can really feel it. And so, this is boring. I think I'd rather do some school stuff if there was any than think about life. Yes, I am again in this kind of mood, because of Zenkai Girl. My life is boring. There is no drama. There's no emotion actually, apart from anger or annoyance, family-wise. But let's not include my family life here. More like, love life but not really as well. Maybe just my life as a teenager? Or as a youth that should be expressing a lot emotion since I'm young and nothing is really in the way? Ahh~ I've been like this for two to three years now. A while ago, I kind of thought off giving in, like letting myself fall in love again. Cheesy, yuck, I know, but it's really boring. This may sound masochistic but I miss feeling the pain? Yeah, pain. Because it was always one sided then. The last time I felt rather alive was when I was trying to stop myself from falling for someone really close and dear to me. Because it would probably ruin our friendship. And I promised myself that I won't be the one to fall in love first ever again. Yep, I swore that ever since that incident with RJ and Ana. Yeah, I might actually give in this time. Since I'm more mature, I think I can handle it. But when I tried to think of the one person that I'd gladly open my heart for again, no one came up to my mind. No one. Don't you think this is bad? There really is no one and there really is nothing. How can life be this boring? I'm only 18 for crying out loud. *sigh*

2011-09-24T21:50:00.002+08:00

Katext ko si Mark. Wala lang. Sabi ko sa kanya mag TThS siya next term at sumama siya samin minsan. Sabi niya okay daw. Wala lang. E syempre lagi niya kasi kasama girlfriend niya. Namimiss ko na e. Hirap talaga pag lalaki kaibigan tapos may girlfriend, parang distansya amigo. Pero okay lang kung close ko din ung babae kaya lang hindi e. Parang si Vic. Tumawag kasi nung birthday ni Anjo e pauwi pa lang kami ni Anjo nun. Tas edi usap tapos naputol. Tapos di na matawagan kausap pala girlfriend. Tapos edi text siya onti samin while nag-uusap sila tas may sinabi siya tas sabi niya selosa daw ung "mom" ko. Wala lang. E diba close na close kami ni Vic tas parang dati friendly flirt pa. Wala lang. Sana parang si Anjo na lang. Kilala at mejo close ko din ung girlfriend kahit papano. Naisip ko tuloy pano pag may girlfriend na sina Angelo, Kevin, at Jesse. D: Oo di kasama si Sherwin kasi alam kong sobrang kaibigang mahal ko ung magiging girlfriend niya kung sakali. Haha.

2011-09-23T22:24:00.001+08:00

Bat ba wala akong pera at kotse? Para pwede ako umalis dito sa bahay ng kahit anong oras pag gusto ko.

2011-09-23T22:18:00.004+08:00

Di na nagbago tong putangina kong tatay. Nakainom. Tapos basta ayoko ikwento ng detailed nahihiya ako e. E tapos syempre ako nanaman pipigil. E tapos sabi ni daddy pakiss. Pinalo ko pa sabi ko mabaho blah. Naawa naman ako ng onti kasi nanlalambing. E tapos ayan nanaman ung kung ano mang ayoko ikwento. Wala. Tangina lang. Forever tangina. Andito pa uncle ko. So eto nabibingi nanaman ako sa sounds ko. Gabing gabi na e. Ayoko sana magsounds ng max nanaman lahat ng volume. Tapos okay na sana araw ko e kahit bagsak ako.

2011-09-23T00:28:00.004+08:00

So ano may ni-tweet ung friend ko na picture. Si Ryo at Gakki. ~~Parang naghangout ata sila. Pero di ko sure kasi~~ ang naintindihan lang daw nung friend ko are bowling, Gakki's shoes, and Ryo smoking near the toilet. (Kev pakitranslate naman kung kaya mo hihi) Wrap-up party daw pala ng Zenkai Girl, ung drama nilang dalawa. So eto ung pic:

Ayan. Wala lang. Nagtweet din kasi ung friend ko "love Gakki's outfit here. but another Ryo smoking pic again *frowns*". Lagi silang "frown", basta ayaw kasi nila na nagyoyosi sila, syempre bad for the health. Ayoko rin naman pero okay lang sakin di ung ganyan. Iniisip ko kung ako lang ba ung ganun e, baka dahil sanay akong may nagyoyosi sa paligid ko at may bisyo rin ako (not smoking!). Tapos ano rin nung nagpabutas ng tenga si Yuya, ayaw rin niya. Samantalang nung time na un gustong gusto ko na ulit makitang nakahikaw si Keii. Di ko alam kung weird ako o conservative lang talaga siya e :)) o baka nga dahil sanay lang ako sa ganung environment o baka dahil teenager ako at siya e mas mature sakin kaya mas alam niya ang right or wrong. Pero wala lang kasi parang...e ano ngayon kung nagyoyosi siya o may hikaw or umiinom or nagpaparty? Ganyan siya e, magagawa natin. Hot pa nga e. Joke. Haha. Pero oo naman no XD ewan ayun basta napaisip nanaman ako kung ako lang ganun o hindi XD

PS. Bat kaya ung mga artistang lalaki dito sa Pilipinas hindi ganyan magdamit katulad ni Ryo...?

2011-09-22T13:17:00.002+08:00

Fuck pride.

Umalis kasi si daddy susunduin ung uncle ko sa airport. So kami lang nila mommy at Lance dito. E may ginagawa ako, nagsusulat ako. Alam niyo namang napakadami kong kailangan tapusin. Sinasabi ko rin naman sa kanila un pero parang di pa rin ata nila gets. So ayun nga umalis nga si daddy diba. E oras na ng nap time ni Lance. Pero bago siya matulog pinapaliguan muna. Pinapa-paligo sakin ni mommy. E nagsusulat nga ako edi ayaw ko. E tapos ito si Lance sakin naman gusto. Edi umiiyak naglulumpasay kasi kinukuha ni mommy, lumapit kasi sakin di ko pinapansin blah blah. Tapos ung nanay ko sigaw ng sigaw as usual kung anu-ano nanaman sinsabi. Super max to the max na ung volume ng sounds ko, nakaearphones ako para lang di ko marinig. E tapos syempre naawa na ko kay Lance, edi sabi ko sa isip ko tapusin ko lang tong isang paragraph tapos papaliguan ko na. E eto pala si mommy binasa na si Lance e tapos ewan kung ano nangyari basta basa na siya nakahubad sasabunan na ata tapos pumunta dito sakin. Lumalayo kay mommy. Tanga kasi sinisigawan niya, pinupwersa, e syempre lalayo sa kanya un. Tas basta ayan na narinig ko na "pak!", pinalo na niya ng brush. Gago amputa. Kabwisit. Halatang nananadya e, gumagawa ng scene dito sa kwarto ko para makita ko tangina niya tinaas pa talaga ung kurtina na nagsserve as pinto ng kwarto ko e. Eto naman ako si ma-pride di pa rin kumikibo, sige lang sulat. Naawa na ko kay Lance e. Wala. Ayun tapos na ata maligo. Tangina lang forever. Di na nagbago tong tangina kong nanay. Ako din di na nagbago.

2011-09-18T02:45:00.002+08:00

I planned to blog about my day as soon as I got home yesterday but I totally forgot so I'm doing it now. Well, in my previous post, I included in my list of things to do the two reaction papers for my Technology in the Arts course. Unfortunately, I was only able to finish analyzing one movie. And so after I had my oral exam, I asked my professor if I could still pass my late papers. She said she doesn't normally accept late papers and so I asked her if I'd still pass the course since I know that I failed my first quiz. But she said that she doesn't think I'll fail. I got 20 points in the oral exam, which is like our finals, and 19 points for my report, seems like 20 is the perfect score. That's why she said it's all right if I don't pass the reaction papers, it's just that I could have gotten a higher grade.

I'm thankful, really, but of course regretful ~~again~~. I wonder what my grade would be. Well, thank you to my speech gift! It totally saved me this time.

Oh! And my professor already knows me~ lalala~ favorite course and professor this term~ and my professor knows me~ Maybe not by my name, but at least she knows me by face! :))

PS. I'm on Se7en mode right know. Wait for my upcoming cover of his song I'm Going Crazy! ~~Well, no, not really, there's really nothing to look forward to.~~

2011-09-16T21:22:00.004+08:00

TINATAMAD AKO.

Requirements to finish for tomorrow:
COE115-1L Laboratory Report 2
COE115-1L Laboratory Report 3
COE115-1L Laboratory Report 5
COE115-1L Laboratory Report 6
COE115-1L Laboratory Report 7
COE115-1L Laboratory Report 8
HUM18 TRON Legacy Reaction Paper
HUM18 Mia Sarah Reaction Paper

Exams tomorrow:
COE11I5-1L Online Exam
HUM18 Oral Exam

2011-09-16T00:31:00.004+08:00

Ui grabe naman naiiyak ako. Kakabasa ko lang kasi ng blog ng aking mahal na kaibigan na si Lara. E tapos basta. Malungkot. E ako medyo okay lang. Hindi malungkot, medyo masaya rin kahit babagsak. E pero ayoko kasi ng masaya ako tapos ung kaibigan ko pala may pinagdadaanan ng kung ano. Parang sana ako na lang sanay naman akong malungkot e pero wag ung ganung pangyayari sa kanya. Emo. Hindi, pero totoo. Hindi ba pwedeng lahat masaya na lang? Sana kahit bumagsak na lang ako ng lahat ng subjects ko tapos walang Taekwondo sa Mapua okay lang.

PS. Congratulations, happy birthday, at happy anniversary nga pala sa NEWS at ARASHI kahapon. 12 years na ang ARASHI at 8 years na ang NEWS. Kaya naman, pinalitan ko ang aking playlist. Isang song lang, NEWS's Happy Birthday.

2011-09-11T00:09:00.006+08:00

~~Yesterday~~ Last Friday, as I was browsing through Mapua's website, looking for my Physics professor's schedule, I came across the Announcement section and, with surprise and excitement, I saw that our school is looking for Taekwondo players for the 87th NCAA Tournament! My eyes widened with shock and disbelief. Of course I clicked on the hyperlink and read all the information about it. If I would like to try out, must submit a form on or before September 16. Screening is on September 17, and try out is on the 26th. I am actually qualified to join, wow. Thank goodness I'm a medalist and I'm a colored belt-er. I'm going to try my luck. I don't care if I get chosen or not. My only concern is that I haven't been playing since 2007 and I am now in the Advance division. The Advance division is made up of players wearing red belts up to black belts. And IF I get picked, I don't want to play in the Advance division. Last training and tournament I joined was four years ago, I can't go and fight against a black belt. That would be suicide. Still, wish me luck friends!

And so I forgot everything about why I was looking for my professor's schedule. My laboratory report got abandoned.

2011-09-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

So eto nanaman ako, kumakahol. Feeling ko maluluwa ko ung tonsils at lungs ko. Gutys naaalala niyo ba kung pano ako pag inuubo? TT TT

2011-09-05T11:43:00.003+08:00

May narealize lang ako. Lahat ng lalaking na-attract/naa-attract sakin puro pangit. -.- My standards have been set unrealistically high after years of mentally ~~still~~ dating Koyama Keiichiro.

2011-09-05T04:23:00.007+08:00

May naalala lang akong nakalimutan kong i-blog nung Friday. Magta-Tagalog na ko para mabilis dahil may ginagawa ako at wala ako sa mood mag-Ingles. So ayun. Absent kasi ako nung Wednesday so di ko nakuha ung quiz 2 namin sa Differential Equations. Pag pasok ko nung Friday edi kinuha ko. At ako ay natigilan, natulala, nagulat, nabigla, lahat na ng unexpected whatevs. Ang ganda ganda ng score ko. Inaral ko ung coverage e. Pero di masyado. Pero inaral ko ung mga hindi ko alam last term tapos inintindi ko lang ulit ung alam ko dati. Tapos ito score ko, tadah~

Gulat na gulat ako e. Akala ko kasi makakakuha ako kahit mga 60. Nagsagot ako a. At ang alam ko e tama ung ginagawa ko so pag balik sakin nung papel ko hindi ko pa rin alam kung anong mali ko. Conclusion: wala pala talaga akong naintindihan sa lesson? Pero last term nasagutan ko e. Eto o papakita ko sa inyo ang madugo kong pagsosolve ng isa't kalahating oras na napunta sa wala.

Sobrang nadisappoint ako na ewan nung araw na un. E un din ung araw na nasira ung laptop ko ~~buti na lang naayos ng aking super awesome mega to the max Mapuan friend na si Kevin~~. Disappointed na hindi ko alam kung anong nangyari. Kasi nakasagot ako e, pero puro mali pala. Tapos mga score pa ng mga classmates ko 70, 85, 100, 110, may plus 10 kasi lahat. So 29 pala ko no how nice. Kinompyut ko naman at aabot pa ko sa passing kung ipe-perfect ko ung last quiz at finals. Ganito kasi yan, tatlo lang quiz namin. 22.75% ung first, 19.50% itong nabagsak ko tapos 22.75% din ung last, and then 25% finals. Ang laking hatak. Naramdaman ko na ung katamaran nung araw na un, di na sana ko mag-aaral ulit e. Pero di pwede, kailangan magpursige. Iniisip ko nga kung pano ko pumapasa dati. Kasi ganito naman ako dati pero once na sabihin ko sa sarili ko na dapat akong pumasa sa course na un, under all/different circumstances pumapasa ako, napapaabot ko sa passing. Hindi ko alam kung pano dito sa course na to e ang kakaiba. Tapos pag pasok ko pa sa next class, Rizal, sabi sakin nung prof ko namiss ko na ung chance ko magreport nung Wednesday. E isa pa to wala pa ko napapasa pero okay lang puro malapit sa passing score ko at minor lang to. E pero kasi matapos kong basahin ung 30 pages na topic nung group namin di rin pala ko makakareport. Buti na lang mabait ung prof ko at binigyan ako ng chance magreport mamaya. So ayun after class niyaya ko kumain si Ezra at Kevin. Kumain kapag depressed. Wala pang time magshot, super busy.

Eto pa ko tinatapos ko limang laboratory reports para sa aking hardware class, late na to lahat e. Ayoko kasi magpasa ng isa isa gusto ko tapos na lahat. So eto walang tulugan.

Gagawin ko na lang ung best ko para sa time na natitira at ipagdadasal ko na lang ang aking fate. Hwaiting~!

PS. Oo nga pala, compiler ang machine problem namin sa Data Stuctures laboratory. Alam niyo kung kailan in-announce? Nung Thursday. At defense na sa September 15. Tapos hindi pa sinesend samin nung prof naming ung kailangan para masimulan ung coding. How awezome can that be? I am so thrilled! NOT.

2011-09-02T10:19:00.002+08:00

I feel so nationalistic and the urge to do something in my own way is there. I wonder if I'm the only one like this. I'm 18 years old and I feel passionate about my country. Is that normal? Or do I belong to a group of people of the same type? When I'm in my Rizal class and we're watching a movie, I get emotional. I look at my classmates and think if they're the same. I wonder if there are a lot like me or they're all just indifferent.

2011-09-02T09:41:00.003+08:00

I am currently trying to finish reading The Indolence of the Filipinos by Dr. Jose Rizal for my report. I am now on the last chapter. I have group mates for this one and I am only assigned to report about the latter half of chapter four and then chapter five. To think of it, I need not to read all these 31 pages and just the last 12. Wait. I just realized that my part is like half of the article...those bastards ><. Oh well, I'll show them that it was a wise decision to give me half of it so not to waste this wonderful article...but still those bastards. So yeah I decided to read all of it. If I don't, how am I able to understand my part? Do I seem dedicated? No not really. *sigh*

So I decided to take a break and blog about something that has been on my mind for a while now. I feel like I'll be pursuing software engineering in the future. My original plan is to go for both software and hardware engineering. But by the looks of things, if I can't do both, I'll probably end up being a software engineer. I have 5 laboratory reports for my hardware class that needs to be done. I'm really struggling to finish it. I am not quite thrilled with this subject. But in my Data Structures laboratory, which I am taking for the second time, I can finish programs WITHOUT resorting to the codes of others. It may seem that I am only able to finish them because I already did them before but that's wrong. Last term, Ezra and I didn't really code our exercises. We were only typing Neil's codes, so I really didn't do anything. But now...voila! I always get a high grade for the coding/implementation part. Especially yesterday, I was late, I arrived at around 1PM. We were only given until 3PM to finish two programs. Instead of doing drill 4, we skipped to drill 5. Ezra and I were not prepared. And so Ezra was not able to save Neil's codes in her phone ( we only use this for backup, like if we really can't do the task, which still hasn't happened, or to check on how to use a particular algorithm. we don't use the whole snippet ). We were to finish two programs for two hours. Most of our classmates were passing around codes, Old Testament, like cheating or leakage. Uhh well for example, I do the codes now. And then next term, I give them out to friends for them to use for that same course. My codes then are called old testament. So yeah, we were to finish two programs. The last one we were allowed to take home. The highest grade is 5. My professor checked mine, did not even run the program, and baam gave me a 2.5. 2.5 for the first program. Meaning I got a perfect score. Didn't use anything. Just typed what I had in mind. So cool. Also, last time, I got 4.8 for all 3 or 4 programs. OZOM. Well, I hop this continues.

Bye! Gotta hit the toilet! ><

2011-08-29T15:18:00.004+08:00

Browsing through my Tumblr dashboard. Then I come to see this...this photo of a...I don't know how to call him. One of the tags was "must you sit like that pi". -.-" *trying to control imagination and pushing away incoherent thoughts*

2011-08-27T03:41:00.002+08:00

I'm not sleeping tonight. Busy girl, yeah. So I was looking at new magazine scans of NEWS. I was looking at Keii, observing his features. Then, again, I feel sad. Again, I remembered that he will never be mine, that he doesn't exist in my world and I don't exist in his. That he lives in Japan and me, in the Philippines. That I don't and can't speak Japanese and him, English. It's like "me and you against the world" :))

The way I write, think about it makes it look like it's a serious love issue. LOL. But it is TT TT

2011-08-26T05:46:00.003+08:00

This was supposed to be for yesterday but I totally forgot to type it. Anyway~

I really like gentlemen. You know, guys who do simple things. Those who open the door for you, offer you a seat, let you board a vehicle first. A guy like this is very rare in today's time. I can't blame them though, coz a lot of girls do not know how to show gratitude. So even if they're only like that to the elders, it's alright.

You see, there was a guy on the bus who offered his seat to an old lady. The lady thanked him of course, and he smiled at her. Then our eyes met and I had the urge to write down a draft of this entry. He's cute yeah, and a gentleman too. If only he didn't pick whom to help. But still, it was such a nice thing to see. I really love seeing traditional stuff like this.

And now I have nothing else to write besides "I'M HUNGRY!". Bye~

2011-08-25T09:23:00.008+08:00

Baliw to si Miru ang aga aga hahahaha napa-blog tuloy ako bigla hindi kasi online mga kaibigan ko kailangan ko mag KASHFASHFKJSHFKSFH!! HAHAHAHA

Kasi magkausap kami sa twitter ni Miru. Syempre may RP. Inaasar ko siya kay Shige, twins daw kasi sila at si Massu daw boyfriend ni Miru. So incest. Basta ganun hahaha tapos biglang naging RuiKeii O.o

__Miru ミルキィ

@LRLRui -.- nababaliw na ko. @.@ wala pa kong maayos na tulog 8-}

LRLRui Luisa Leal

@__Miru i see. you and Shige have been doing it a lot lately ;))

__Miru ミルキィ

@LRLRui .... =_= dont even let you and keii pass anything eh. Drank with hi yesterday he let out pretty funny stuff. *wink*

LRLRui Luisa Leal

@__Miru ehh? O.o well that was prolly Pi he was doing it with.ive been busy for the past few weeks -.- AT BAT NPUNTA SAKIN MIRUSHIGE TO HAHA

__Miru ミルキィ

@LRLRui nah... It wasnt pi. Who's pi? *bitter* 8DDD MAGALING AKO EHH 8DDD XDDD

LRLRui Luisa Leal

@__Miru :))..then that mustve been another girl! x(

__Miru ミルキィ

@LRLRui ikaw raw eh. We've never heard him say rui so many times in a night. :3

The last part namaaaan. Naiisip ko kasi e! HAHAHAHAHA Isipin niyo un kami ni Keii! Tapos kinukwento niya sex life namin @.@ at ang daming beses binanggit pangalan ko edi....HAHAHAHA

ANG AGA AGA NAMAN TALAGA TO SI MIRU NABALIKTAD E. HAHAHA KEII ♥ XD

PS. Di ko mapigilan na kapag tinitignan ko picture ni Keii naiisip ko "so kinukwento mo sa kanila huh? /:)" 8-} =))))

HAHAHAHAHA ANG HABA NG PS NA TO SIRA ULO TO SI MIRU TALAGA HAHAHA kasi tinatry ko ibalik sa MiruShige tapos...

LRLRui Luisa Leal

@__Miru oh. you and Shige huh? you two prolly tricked Keii into drinking so that you can get an "advice" /:)

__Miru ミルキィ

@LRLRui SHIGE KAJAN.

LRLRui Luisa Leal

@__Miru ahhhh siguro ung porn star Shige that you were thinking of kanina napulot niyo kay Keii /:) :"> :))

__Miru ミルキィ

@LRLRui WHAT ARE YOU IMPLYING? ;)) did you cosplay pornstar-client once? ;;))))))

Oh goodness. Last part. HAHAHAHAHAHA NAMAAAAN XD

PS Part 2. 8-}

LRLRui Luisa Leal

@__Miru well at least im not the one who played pornstar HAHAHAHA

__Miru ミルキィ

@LRLRui nako mas masakit na nanonood kaysa na nag eexhibit! =))))

Uhhhh...HAHAHA ~~syempre naisip ko nanaman~~ =.=

Tapos pag scroll down ko dito sa blog ko nakita ko naman picture ni Keii @.@

2011-08-17T23:00:00.003+08:00

So annoying. Alam mo ung pagod na pagod ka na at ang dami mong ginagawa at kailangan pang gawin tapos bubulabugin ka ng bonggang bongga? Tang-ina lang. Nakakabadtrip ng sobra. Kanina pauwi ako nakatanggap ako ng text ni mommy sabi tumawag daw si ate sa kanya galit daw bat hindi pa daw ako nagpapa-pasta. Nairita ko agad. Galit? Ayos a. Edi nireplyan ko na madami nga akong ginagawa tapos isisingit ko pa ung pasta. E magddrop na nga ako ng course dahil hindi ko kaya magadjust sa punyeta kong schedule e. Tapos pag-uwi ko naman tinanong ako ni daddy kung anong oras ba daw talaga uwi ko, past 10 na ko nakauwi kasi. Edi sinabi ko 7:30, un naman talaga uwian ko. Tapos tinanong niya kung bakit ngayon lang daw ako, sabi ko nagpaturo pa kasi ako. Aba puta nanaman nagmake ba naman ng sound na nagsasabing hindi siya naniniwala. Edi sabi ko sumama siya para malaman niya. Nakakairita talaga. Kumain kasi kami nila Ezra at Kevin kanina at nagpaturo naman talaga ko napakaputang-ina ng mga tao dito. Tapos basta sagutan na kami ni daddy badtrip siya pa galit e. May sinabi pa siya na parang tinanong lang ako ang dami ko nang sinabi basta usual away namin. Edi sabi ko magtatanong siya sasagutin siya tapos hindi siya maniniwala edi wag na siya magtanong. Buti nga siya andito lang nag-aalaga kay Lance di naman siya nag-aaral. Di naman kasi nila alam ung stress na naeexperience ko e. Sila kaya magputang-inang quarterm. Tapos kung anu-ano pang sasabihin. Nag-aaral na nga ako. Hirap na hirap nga ako ipasa ung mga punyemas kong subjects e. Lalo na ngayon 70% na passing pati sa professional courses namin. 60% lang kasi dati pero ang hirap pa rin ipasa nun tapos ngayon ginawang 70% para sa mga ME, CE, EE, ECE, at CpE. Fuck accreditation. Ang ganda nga accredited kami pero tae naman patayan. Nung hindi pa nga na-accredit hirap na e, tapos tataasan pa nila standards. Tataasan pa e ang taas na nga peste. Ang haba nanaman nito puro rant nanaman at nagta-Tagalog nanaman ako. Nakakairita lang talaga e. Kailangan ko lang magblog bago simulan ung mga gagawin ko ngayon. Di nga pala ko matutulog hanggang Friday so wish me luck. Salamat at pasensya.

PS: Sobrang sakit ng likod ko. Ang bigat kasi lagi ng bag ko e. Ako pa nagdadala ng laptop para sa hardware laboratory ko. Tapos hindi man lang ingatan nung groupmates ko. Di man lang tinitignan kung matatamaan ba nila o magagasgasan tang-ina nila.

2011-08-17T09:39:00.003+08:00

Read my friends' blogs and felt like posting an entry myself. They update their blogs while mine has flies all over it. :))

So~ tough schedule is really tough. When I get home, all I want to do is sleep. When I wake up in the morning, I cram to finish everything that I have to. Still not enough time. Everyday classes with dismissals in the evening is one troublesome schedule. I hope all those freshmen will be out of Mapua next term so that we'll have our morning schedules again. I'm so tired even though my sleep isn't short.

Friends, I'm studying! Look! Look! Since I can't find a mini-white board, I am now using post-its.

However, since I really can't cope up with my schedule, I have to sacrifice a course. This is the deadline of dropping of courses and the course that I'm dropping. If you're wondering, nope, I'm not telling my parents. I'm going to forge my mom's signiture. Shhh!

2011-08-10T23:21:00.001+08:00

Today is the day that I officially return to school. My professors were really considerate, I'm glad. Especially my professor in Differential Equations. He clearly said that he doesn't give special exams to those who missed them, yet he immediately gave me a date and did not even look at my excuse letter and medical certificate. Now my only problem are my TThS professors. I hope they're as considerate as my MWF ones. I have A LOT of catching up to do. So many exams missed. I think there are about 4? So many stress...so many stress. I need a club banger. LOL kidding. Ah~ Seungri-ah~ just joke. XD

Anyway, I decided to start working on this blog entry while on the bus home. There was this weird guy next to me. So I had one of the air-conditioners facing me. When I felt like it was already cold, I closed it and left it open just a little bit so that there's still air. Then this guy beside me suddenly asked me if I was feeling cold, "nilalamig po kayo?". I stared at him, dumbfounded. o.o "hindi naman". It was really weird. I mean like what the hell why did he ask me that question? Why does he care? Seems like he wanted the air-con to be fully open. But hello there were two air-cons there. He could have just turned one towards him. No need to ask me something unnecessary. Actually, there was no need to talk to me, sheesh.

And so I was not able to finish writing this then because three suspicious men boarded the bus. They looked like they were drunk. Better be cautious than not. And I kept my phone in my bag, so as my wrist watch.

And that's it for today. Wish me luck for tomorrow!

2011-07-22T00:46:00.004+08:00

So~ as I was checking my Twitter timeline, I came across a photo of Keii where he is half naked. I thought he attached it to one of his jweb entries because he was the one who took it himself. Naturally, I searched for the original photo and I found out that it is from a magazine! Don't know which magazine yet though. But that's easy, there are only 5 idol mags. Hohoho. So~ yeah I cropped and edited the lighting a bit.

He looks "mighty fine" as one fandom friend of mine who happens to love Keii the best as well said. MIGHT FINE INDEED. Look at his abs *.* This is really the kind of body I like, apart from Massu's and Ryo's. Keii's work out is really paying off. I wish he won't try to grow boobs like Pi though, he really admires Pi's chest muscles >.>

This photo is really jaw dropping, panty dropping, and saliva dropping. *drools*

P.S. Lara if ever you come across this post, look at the tree trunk! =P~ XD

2011-07-19T22:29:00.002+08:00

My course Technology in the Arts is starting to get a little bit, just a little bit boring. Ms. Corinne, our professor, doesn't seem like she's teaching really, but she is! It's like she's always telling stories. It's fun though, how she presents her lecture. But I'm waiting for her to give out activities. I really want to put my hands and my brain on something. She told us that last term, she required her students to pass a project by the end of the term. Anything, just anything that uses technology for its processing. Of course, I would love to do photography. But I don't have a camera. If I would do photography, I can't think of a unique concept. If I decided to do fashion photography, I don't have a model, a camera, and clothes. Well, I do have clothes but they will only fit me. I can't remember if I already blogged about this. Just that. Well, yes. Oh yeah! Earlier in my Physics laboratory class, my group was the first to pass the data. We surprisingly got a perfect score for the data sheet and also gained another 10 points! I don't know what the plus points were for but I think it was because we were the first group to finish. Yay to us! Well it's about time I excelled, it's my freaking third take. >.>

2011-07-18T22:31:00.002+08:00

Hindi nanaman ako pumasok kanina. Tinatamad ako. Ewan ko. Eto na nga ba sinasabi ko e, baka hindi rin magtuloy tuloy ung naramdaman ko dun sa Arts subject ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong kelangan kong gawin e. Tignan niyo nga puro Filipino na posts ko. Hindi ko alam kung kelangan ko ba magshift o lumipat ng school, hindi ko alam. Sana ngayong araw lang to tapos pag gising ko bukas okay na ulit inspired na. Naguguluhan talaga ko tapos pag punta ko dito sa blog ko narinig ko ung kanta tapos nabasa ko ung comments sa cbox ko. Wala lang. Medyo na-uplift ung mood ko. Tapos bumalik ng onti nang magsimula akong magtype nitong entry na to. Naiinggit ako sa inyong lahat. Wala kayong mga bagsak, kung meron man, onti lang. E ako ung transcript ko 3 pages na. Naiinggit ako kasi kaya niyo sabihan sarili niyo na mag-aral tapos nagagawa niyo. Mag-LOA kaya ako next term. Baka sakaling mamiss ko mag-aral tapos pag balik ko super ganado ako. Kaya lang malelate nanaman ako nun. Sobrang late. Pagbalik ko nun wala na kong mga kasabay. Ang lungkot. O baka dahil hindi na ko naggi-gym kaya ganito, hindi na ko nakakasayaw. Ewan. Blah. Lord tulungan mo ko. Hindi ko alam kung anong gusto ko.